June 2003 Archives

I'm checking out of halls now...will be meeting some friends and going to the airport soon. Bye Melbourne. It has been a fucking awesome 3 years.

I actually posted this before I went yesterday but it somehow didn't get saved into the database. Anyway, I went to this indoor psy-trance event with a couple of friends. This is definitely the last rave I'll go to before leaving Melbourne, and it was great! Well, I'll post about that and put up pictures when I arrive in Sibu. I'm leaving in 12 hours and I'm gonna finish up some final (re)packing and try and get a 4 hour nap. Also, my 5 GB per month bandwidth allowance has been exceeded, so I'll have to pay for anything over that limit. Anyway, here's a photo from this morning. I just came back. It's blurry, but taking photos was no mean feat inside. The LCD viewfinder is totally dark and the optical viewfinder isn't that useful either, so it was a matter of guess and press. :) I don't remember who took this photo though, but it was a great attempt, considering the lighting conditions. The ones I took are nothing to write home about, most of them blurry too. How do you take photos in this situation anyway? Dark venue, unpredictable multicolored lasers, occasional flashes of strobe light etc etc. I've seen some great photos taken at the very same conditions.

P/S - I know my hair is a mess, I never did get around to cutting it and I promised my gf to come home without a haircut.

Link: Tribeadelic [tribeadelic.com]

Photo Friday - Angles [photofriday.com]

Angles. This is a photo of Federation Square [federationsquare.com.au], a relatively new structure filled with angles located in the center of Melbourne (Australia) city. The picture only shows a very small portion of the whole construct. The construction of this large project was received with mixed responses [theage.com.au]. It was officially opened on the 26th of October 2002, but some features were not fully in place at that time. The most memorable comment I heard about it was this taxi driver who said "Look at this ugly building. I don't know what the fuck the government is thinking. It's ruining the city." One of my friends replied "Well, it does have a certain artistic quality to it..." and the driver made a "pfft" sound and said "I still think it's terrible." :) Personally, I like Federation Square, it's unique and nicely built. This has the potential of becoming an "icon" of Melbourne like Sydney's Opera House. There's quite a bit of interesting features about it, the official site is a good read if you're interested. I took this photo four days ago in an attempt to document Melbourne in photos before I leave for good in two days. The weather was not optimal (drizzling + misty) but the focus seems unaffected.

The shooting data:

Focal Length: 8mm
Exposure Mode: Programmed Auto
Metering Mode: Multi-Pattern 1/372.5 sec - f/2.8
Exposure Compensation: 0 EV
Sensitivity: Auto
White Balance: Auto
AF Mode: AF-C
Saturation Compensation: 0

The post-production work was done in Photoshop 7.0 and involves:

Gamma correction: Gamma increased to improve visibility
Image Size: Size reduced from 2048x1536 to 500x375

I didn't miss my flight or anything, I just rescheduled it to tomorrow. Unfortunately, all the outbound flights tomorrow and the day after are fully booked. I'm confirmed for a flight out of Melbourne on Sunday the latest and I'm on the waiting list for Saturday, so we'll see how that goes tomorrow. Well, the reason I rescheduled it is because I needed to get this letter from my faculty to testify that I've graduated, so I won't have to pay back the surcharge (it's complicated to explain). The surcharge is A$957 so I decided to get the statement tomorrow and avoid the surcharge. MAS is great anyway, they were more than happy to switch me around, with no "late notice" charges too - everything is free. Fly Malaysian Airlines. ;)

The front of the pill has an imprint of a Canadian maple leaf.
The front is flat, there is no sign of a dome.
The back of the pill is beveled and there is no score.
The White Maple Leaf is slightly thicker than the White HQ pills, even when the latter's dome is taken into account.
This seems to be a local pill as well, and it is rumored that both of these pills are made by the same manufacturers.

Marquis:

Slow to dark purple and retained that color. The reaction was faster than the White HQ, it probably took 7 seconds.

Conclusion: MDxA

Simons:

The sample turned blue almost immediately. Nice.

Conclusion: MDMA

Other stuff:

I'm sorry about the candyflipping trip report that remains unwritten. I've been really busy yesterday and today, and I don't think I'll write that one until tomorrow at least. I had such a glowing experience on it that I want to write a proper trip report instead of a half assed one. It was a great combination, very synergistic and euphoric and I'll post it when I'm sober. I won't forget the details as I've written them down. Yeah, I still managed to write notes when I'm walking around town. :) I just had some mushrooms + MDMA too, but that didn't turn out very well. Heh. Will write about it when I'm back in Malaysia. Anyway, I've gotta go out now. Check back again in a couple of days and the candy flip and hippy flip trip reports would be up, and also a salvia report with 5X extract and a butane torch that I got from a friend [Edit: Request for anonymity]. Have a wonderful day everyone! :)

White HQ - front

The front of the pill has "HQ" imprinted shallowly.
That side is slightly domed (raised).
Imprint quality not very impressive.
The back of the pill has beveled edges and a single score down the middle. The beveled edges tapers off at the score:

The grey specks are consistent.
I think this is a local pill due to the lack of similar imprints popping up in other countries.

White HQ - back

Marquis:

Slow to purple and it retained that color (didn't turn black). It probably took all of 10 seconds to achieve that reaction, but it is cold right now, so that could be a factor.

Conclusion: MDxA

Simons:

Mild bubbling and a very light orange color was noted. Very thin and nearly invisible blue streaks could be seen much later (about 12 seconds) but I really had to squint and look at it at an angle to see that.

Conclusion: MDMA and MDA combo? Methamphetamine and MDA combo? I'm making guesses here. Heh! This is speculation based on the previous results and the qualitative effects of that pill. It does seem to be a MDxA based pill though, so all should be good.

Interesting read: Color Test Reagents/Kits for Preliminary Identification of Drugs of Abuse [ncjrs.org]

[.pdf document - Right click, save target as]

It has the compositions of the 12 reagents (including Marquis, Simons, Mecke, Mandelin etc etc) so you could make it yourself. I don't think the chemicals are controlled so it's just a matter of walking into a chemical distribution company (the smaller ones that sells to high schools) and getting the stuff and putting them together. Nifty.

However, I also found out something unpleasant. Apparently it's a bad idea to touch the reagents because most of them have toxic ingredients. I looked at the EZ Test Marquis reagent again and true enough, it has a nicely worded, skim over the details warning in Fine Print. The PDF document above goes into more detail. The Marquis reagent has formaldehyde and this is what the excerpt says:

Formaldehyde - TOXIC.
May cause cancer. May cause heritable genetic damage.
Toxic by inhalation, in contact with skin, and if swallowed.
Causes burns. May cause sensitization by inhalation and skin contact.
Readily absorbed through skin. Lachrymator. Combustible.
Target organs: eyes, kidneys.
Wear suitable protective clothing and gloves.

The easiest way to break up hard pressed pills. Syringes are just so versatile. The needle breaks the pill up with a fissure and the cap serves to move stuff around for the reaction. :)

Here's another excerpt about the chemicals in Simons reagent. This is a real bag of laughs:

Sodium nitroprusside - VERY TOXIC.
Very toxic by inhalation, contact with skin, and if swallowed.
Target organs: blood.
In case of accident or if you feel unwell, seek medical advice immediately.
In case of contact with eyes, rinse immediately with plenty of water and seek medical advice. Wear suitable protective clothing, gloves, and eye/face protection. Do not breathe dust.

Acetaldehyde - EXTREMELY FLAMMABLE, TOXIC.
May cause cancer. May cause heritable genetic damage.
Harmful by inhalation, in contact with skin, and if swallowed.
May cause sensitization by inhalation and skin contact.
Possible risk of harm to unborn child. Causes severe irritation. Lachrymator. Photosensitizer.
Target organs: kidneys, liver.
May develop pressure. Keep away from sources of ignition. In case of contact with eyes, rinse immediately with plenty of water and seek medical advice.
Wear suitable protective clothing, gloves, and eye/face protection.

Needless to say, I was not very impressed at the lack of documentation regarding this in the EZ Test kits. Readily absorbed through the skin...I've been touching it with my bare hands while moving samples into and out of the solution and also mixing things up without gloves. It's my fault for not reading the Fine Print. RTFM. Oh well, I don't think the concentrations present in the reagents is enough to produce those toxic effects anyway.

/me sets up camp on the riverbanks of Egypt

Wow, what a nice view I'm getting.

CSE2030 @ Caulfield Racecourse Ground Level

Right. This happened two days ago (Tuesday) but I was so busy with all the stuff that I couldn't find the time to post until today. My apologies for the lack of posts lately, I'm heading back to Malaysia soon...it's quite sad really. That is, if I had time to be sad, and I don't. :) I have to run out again to get all other things settled before I fly back. Oh, about the exam, I think I did pretty well. Most of the questions were based on the past year exams, but unfortunately I didn't have enough time to complete it. There was a 5 mark question that I didn't have time to finish at the end. Oh well, other than that, everything went smoothly.

Expected Grade: Distinction

I couldn't get the exposure settings right, but the window wall looks out into the racecourse. :)

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Coming up at 10:00 PM (GMT +10): Candyflipping (MDxA + LSD) trip report.

Apologies to the person with the title of this post as his/her nick at bluelight. :) Next on the list - hippy flipping (MDMA + magic mushrooms). I have to run, gotta go out again and get things sorted before I go back. Thanks for all the feedback, I'll reply every comment when I get back.

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White MX w/multi-colored speckles - front

This pill produced a very interesting test result. I'm quite puzzled at the reactions. The pill seems to be from a different batch than the White MX that was tested [sixthseal.com] close to two months ago. The previous batch did not have the kaleidoscope of speckles this new batch has. The White MX from that time did have visible colored specks, but it's not so prominent and dominant compared to this batch. The logo is the same, and this pill also has slightly beveled edges on both sides, and a single score down the back.

White MX w/multi-colored speckles - back

I checked it against the previous photos and the cursive "mx" font is exactly similar. The only thing different is the abundance of speckles in this pill. It has blue, red, green, yellow and browns speckles all over the pill. It would be interesting to note that it was related to me that qualitative comments from a person who had this pill (White MX w/multi-colored speckles), White HQ and White Maple Leaf feels that this pill is strongest among the three.

Marquis

The scraping was tested with a drop of Marquis reagent. The color changed slowly to purple and then to dark purple/black. There was no bubbling or smoking, which I understand rules out DXM. The pill seems like an MDxA pill at this point.

Conclusion: MDxA (purple/black color change)

Simons

Simons Test #1

This is the puzzling one. One drop of Simon's reagent and two drops of buffer solution was added to a sample scraping. The solution started to bubble noticeably (produced air bubbles) and the final color was a very light orange. I thought that I must have messed up the reaction somehow and scraped another bit off for a second test. The same result was noticed - bubbles, and a very light orange solution. It may be interesting to note Erowid has a photo showing an MDA reaction and an MDMA reaction [erowid.org] to Simons and the results seems to be similar to Erowid's MDA result. However, I was under the impression that Simons only tests for secondary amines and MDA is not a secondary amine so it shouldn't react with Simons. I could be missing something basic here though, I'm not very familiar with the more exotic reactions.

Simons Test #2

Conclusion: Not MDMA (no blue color change)

Robadope

I wasn't really keen on doing this due to the low success rate I've had with Robadope in the past. The results have always been ambiguous, there wasn't a reaction where a really strong and unmistakable color change occurred, even with known primary amines like dexamphetamine (Dexedrine) tablets containing 5 mg dextroamphetamine sulfate. This test also requires a rather large sample (EZ Test says 10% of the pill) and I wasn't prepared to sacrifice that amount for a test that may or may not provide a conclusive result. However, curiosity got the better of me and I prepared a drop of Robadope with 3 drops of buffer solution before scraping quite a bit of the pill into the solution. I did not skimp on the sample, as you can see from the sadly mutilated and much less voluminous pill:

The large amount of powder was moved into the solution, but no reaction took place. I did notice a very slight bluish tint to the solution.

The solution's borders have been outlined for better clarity.

I added more scraping, but the color did not change. I pushed a stray drop of buffer solution into the existing solution, which now contains a drop of Robadope and 4 drops of buffer. However, there was still no noticeable color change.

Robadope reagent's original color.

I manipulated a stray Robadope drop into the existing solution, and that colored the solution somewhat (due to the natural coloring of Robadope), but there wasn't a definitive noticeable color change to salmon/red. I thought I did see a bit of red when I looked at the solution from an angle, with some wishful thinking. :) However, the resultant solution (2 drops Robadope, 4 drops buffer solution) looks more yellow than red.

Final color.

I'm quite puzzled at the strange reactions. The EZ Test kit was purchased about two months ago and it has been kept in a dark and cool place. The reagents have been reliable until the strange results today. I'm not discounting the fact that there might be cross-contamination among the bottles, I could have screwed the wrong cap on the wrong bottle. I've always been careful to wipe stray drops from the cap and bottle before screwing on the cap, but it could be a possibility.

White MX w/multi-colored speckles (scanned) - front

That said, assuming the results are correct, what could the substance possibly be? Personally, I'm leaning towards MDA due to the positive Marquis reagent test and the Simons color change that is similar to Erowid's. However, if it is MDA, the Robadope would have tested out too, and it didn't. I must state though, I have had a lot of trouble with Robadope, so I'm not putting too much weight on that result. What do you all think? I would appreciate any educated guesses and speculation. The scanned pill images above and below has more accurate color reproduction than the digicam photos. Please let me know before noon if it could be something that I would regret taking. I know this doesn't sound like a very smart thing to do, but I'm not a very smart person. ;) Thanks!

White MX w/multi-colored speckles (scanned) - back

Disclaimer: The pill has been disposed of and is no longer in my possession. Request for identification is for informational purposes only.

It's quite simple. Study on meth, do the exam on meth. :) That's state dependant learning in a nutshell. Does it work? It does for me. There was this stoner movie (forgot the name - I'm a stoner too, but if it helps, most of the cast are African Americans) where the guys smoke weed while studying and then go to the exam blazed and breezed through it. I'm quite doubtful about the efficacy of their drug of choice in an exam environment though...I'll stick to stimulants, thank you very much.

Lets talk about logistics. I do it by using an empty novelty candy tin which works perfectly for crushing, storing and transporting stuff. I used to be very scared of carrying illicit substances in my personal effects, but I don't seem to have the same fear anymore. *shrug* In the tradition of giving paraphernalia names, I call this The HD Offerings Chamber. You put meth in and (hopefully) HD's come out. HD = High Distinction, the highest grade you can get in Australian universities (correct me if I'm wrong). Uh, don't ask me how many HD's I have in my academic history.

The construction of this portable stash tin is very simple. I'll hesitate to use the word "construction" since I didn't do anything remotely resembling that. :) The crystal meth is pre-crushed (so you won't have to fumble around in the toilet) and a (truncated) straw is packed into the tin. I only carry enough to get me tweaking. The tin is double bound with sticky tape to prevent it from opening and spilling it's contents (a Very Bad Thing).

5 minutes before the exam, I excuse myself to the toilet and lock the door. The tape is removed and a line of appropriate size is racked up using the straw. Insufflate. The guy taking a shit in the stall beside you might ask what you're up to. The correct reply is "It's winter, I have the flu. Now go about your business and stop listening to me." Bind the tin again with sticky tape if you didn't consume everything. The meth should hit you as you walk out of the toilet and stroll (don't walk, stroll) into the exam hall. You should be peaking by the time the examiner says "You have 10 minutes reading time, READING time only". Alert: Neurons firing! Now go and ace that fucking exam! :)

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I went to the city this morning to update my plane ticket. Just three more days till I leave Melbourne for good. I went on a photo shoot around the CBD area and got most of the landmarks. Memories. Unfortunately, today's weather was bad for photography. It was cloudy and drizzling constantly. I had to keep on wiping the lens to avoid droplets of water getting into the frame but the foggy weather still made photos blurry at the horizon. Surprisingly, I saw another person taking photos at Federation Square (the relatively new weird looking building opposite Flinders Street Station). She saw me before I saw her though, and grinned. It is funny, quite coincidental to have two people taking photos while it's drizzling at Federation Square. Dedication. ;)

*wipes tear away from eye* I thought I'll never see you again.

Would it be possible to cash in a dated dexamphetamine (Schedule 8) script several weeks EARLY? I was wondering the same question myself, and I decided to try after reading a caveat in the pharmaceutical dispensing guidelines regarding Schedule 8 substances. It was in a pharmacy site, but I forgot the link. I remembered getting there from the "australia schedule 8 prescription" search string though. Anyway, if you've been reading about my "narcolepsy" and the legal speed I was prescribed to manage the symptoms, you'll have read my final farewell to dextroamphetamine sulfate [sixthseal.com]. That farewell seems to be premature though. Don't you just hate that? ;)

32 days have passed since the last time I refilled my script (including today). I had thought that was the last time I'm going to see my little white friends, because the good doctor upgraded (supersized?) my dexamphetamine prescription by trusting me with the responsibility of 200 x 5 mg dexamphetamine (Dexedrine in the US) tablets upfront with a refill in 50 days instead of the usual 100 x 5 mg every 25 days. The nice doctor did not increase my dose, but he allowed me to get 200 tablets at once, which is not standard prescribing procedure for a Schedule 8 drug.

I have 2 repeats left on the script (time based, only valid if 50 days have passed since the last refill) and I'm not due for a refill until 10th of July, which is next month. I would be back in Malaysia by then so I thought it was the last time I'll be having pharmaceutical quality amphetamines. However, I decided to use one of the methods in my Tome of Doctor Shopping (available for the low, low price of A$0, I've documented everything on this site) to see if I could just eek out one last refill before I go back. It just might be possible, and I won't have to lie to get it. I just have to be economical with the truth. ;)

I'll be going back soon for my holidays and my tablets would run out before I come back, so can I please have an early refill?

There is no untruth in this statement, everything is TRUE. Isn't that great? =D I just didn't mention that I'll be going back for good, as that would invalidate the script (it still has a repeat) which is supposed to be inherited by CT. I also neglected to elaborate that I won't be heading home that early. My tongue slipped and that made me erroneously emphasize the word "soon" with a particular tone which might be misleading to chemists, leading them to think that it was a date like tomorrow. Sorry! ;)

I haven't been to any of the pharmacies I went to today. I didn't want to use the regular dexamphetamine one, since the pharmacist clearly told me about the 50 day refill timeframe. I can't use any of the pharmacies near my place because I have either filled benzodiazepines or bought fit kits and other injecting paraphernalia there, and I didn't want to risk my script. I decided to trawl the pharmacies further away from my usual haunts. We'll see how it goes:

Pharmacy #1

This medicine may increase mental alertness and/or co-ordination. If affected. Do not bite lower lip or smoke too many cigarettes.

I walked in and gave the pharmacist on duty (a nice looking old man) a big ass smile and said "Hello" cheerily. :) "Could you possibly help me with this? It's not due for a while, but I'll be going home for the holidays soon and my prescription will run out before I come back, so would it be possible to get this filled today?"

"That shouldn't be a problem, I'll get to it right away. It would take a couple of minutes."

"Sure, take your time. I appreciate your help."

I tried to be nonchalant and pretended to read a book while in actually fact I was watching the pharmacist out of the corner of my eye. I saw him make a phone call, no problem, he's probably just validating the script, 200 is an extraordinary amount for dexamphetamine. He came up to me after that and said: "I'm sorry sir, but I only have 100 tablets in stock now. However, if you come back at 4:30 pm, the prescription would be all ready for you."

It was slightly before 9 am in the morning then. Hmm...this is a definite go, I thought, I'll be happy to come back at 4:30 pm if that means I would get the refill. However, it bothered me that such a large pharmacy did not carefully maintain the stock levels to avoid situations such as these. Maybe I'm just paranoid, but it doesn't hurt to be careful, and I've learnt something important in my years of recreational drug use: When in doubt - bail.

I did not plan to be untruthful, but circumstances dictate that moral issues should be shelved and contingency plans initiated. "Oh, that would be great, but unfortunately I have an exam later so I wouldn't be able to come back at that time". Pharmacist: "That wouldn't be a problem, we close at 6 pm, so if you just come back anytime before that, the prescription will be ready for you." He was still holding on to my script. I wanted it back. "Well, my exams are in Caulfield so I wouldn't be heading down again, since it would be out of the way. Thanks for your help anyway."

"That wouldn't be a problem, you can just come back tomorrow or another day, and it'll be all ready for you." He was still holding my script. Subtlety will not work here. "Thanks, but that won't be necessary. I'll just get it another day. I'm sorry for bothering you." I hold my hand out for the script. He handed it back rather unwillingly. "Have a nice day" I say as I walk out. I walked to the traffic lights about 25 meters from the pharmacy and stood there while the pedestrian lights were red. I happened to glance beside me and saw two police officers smiling at me in a manner I thought was predatory.

Paranoia? Or did the pharmacist call the police? He wouldn't would he? Even though prescription fraud is punishable by a 1 year jail sentence, I didn't do anything wrong by asking for an early refill (at least I don't think that's breaking any laws). It's such a minor infringement anyway, but why are the police looking at me like that? I am dressed well and conservatively, like I always do when doctor shopping or filling scripts. I nodded at the police and said "Hello officers." I looked back at the pedestrian lights. It turned green. I walked.

It's probably just a coincidence but it was disconcerting.

Pharmacy #2

Keep a supply - ...

Okay, it seems that refilling scripts before the due date is possible under certain circumstances, like the one I'm experiencing. I just need to tweak (no pun intended) the statement a little bit to optimize it. I walk into the second pharmacy and said "Good morning, I was wondering if you could help me out with this. It's not due yet, but my exams are over and I'm flying back home tomorrow. The tablets would run out before I get back, so would it be possible to get this refill earlier so I don't miss my medication?"

"Okay, just a minute, let me ask the pharmacist."

The pharmacist (who happens to be another old man, but not as kindly looking as the first one) looked at the script, looked at me and walked over. "I'm sorry, but we don't stock these. Why don't you go back to the original pharmacy and get it from there?" "Okay, thanks for your help." No go. I don't believe for a second that this large chain does not carry dexamphetamine. The pharmacist probably just though the script was a bit odd, considering the amount and the fact that I'm filling it at a place which is really quite far from the one who issued the repeat authorization and didn't want to fill it.

Oh well, since I'm bending the truth a little (okay, more than a little), I have no right to comment, but does the pharmacist think I look stupid? That's such a lame excuse coming from this well known and large pharmacy chain, but he's probably thinking the same thing too. :) "Does this guy think I'm stupid?" Heh. No harm, no foul, I'll just move along.

Pharmacy #3

...don't cease...

I optimized the statement again. I decided I wasn't going to draw attention to the due date unless the pharmacist asks about it. Hey, maybe I'll get lucky and he'll miss the fact that the due date is next month. "Hello, can I have this filled please?" I say while smiling my "I'm just an innocent student, a nice guy" smile. Cheery and polite, what a hoot I am. :) Unfortunately, this pharmacy does not carry dexamphetamine. I did believe him, because it was a small, hole in the wall chemist, with a tiny prescriptions section. The pharmacist was kind enough to point me in the right direction too. "Hmm...let me think of the pharmacists in (deleted) who stocks these. There are two at (deleted) Street that would most likely have them in stock. You could pop over and see."

"Thanks for your help!"

Pharmacy #4

...without Dr's advice

I modified the statement again. I implemented the lessons learnt from the first three pharmacies and decided to experiment with an additional sentence to add authority to my statement. I put on my best shit eating grin and applied my friendliest tone with overtures of "Oh, I feel sorry for all the hard work you do that goes unnoticed. I really appreciate your self-sacrificing service to the community." The pharmacist was a man in his early 30s, he looks young and I somehow feel that this would be the one.

Me: Good morning! Rainy day huh?
Pharmacist: Yeah, it's been raining the whole morning. It's quite cold eh?
Me: Indeed. The weather has been rather dismal these days. It's going to be good for the alpine though, I hear there's some nice snowfall up there. Too bad I'm going to miss snowboarding this year.
Pharmacist: Oh, that's too bad. Where are you going?
Me: I'm heading back for the holidays. Just finished my exams, oh this reminds me, this script is not due yet, but unfortunately, I'll be going home for a month and half so the tablets would run out before I come back. I called the doctor and he suggested that I get a refill before I go back. The doctor's details is here.
I flip the repeat authorization over confidently and pointed out the original doctor's script, while taking care not to overextend myself and expose tattoos. It doesn't hurt to be careful, even a shave to look clean cut helps.
Pharmacist: 200? Oh, wow.
Me: Yeah, I've been prescribed this for narcolepsy. The doctor gave me a larger amount so I won't have to get it filled so often.
Pharmacist: I see. Sure, this is no problem at all. It'll just take 10 minutes for me to get this filled.
Me: Thanks! I appreciate your help.

I pray that he won't call the doctor, because the part about me consulting the doctor for advice didn't exactly happen.

I pretended to browse around the store and decided that a display of hair coloring is very interesting and stared at that with a half smile, all the while keeping my ears cocked for phone conversations. This is dangerous territory...if he calls the doctor, all would be lost. The doctor is under the impression that dexamphetamine is cheaper in Malaysia so it wouldn't make sense for me to collect the script here, and he'll certainly remember if we had a conversation about early refills, and we didn't. Malaysia didn't even approve dextroamphetamine for anything! It's not available for prescribing in Malaysia. I shouldn't have said that. Lady luck, show me some love!

5 minutes later... (it felt like 50 minutes)

Pharmacist: Hey!

I pretended that he didn't made me jump. I was on methcathinone (I'll write about it some other time) and it doesn't take much to make me jump when I'm tweaking. Thankfully, a column of hygiene products obscured me, so my startled response didn't get noticed.

Me: Yes?
Pharmacist: It's (deleted) right? Is that how your pronounce it?
Me: You've got it spot on, that's my name alright.
Actually he didn't pronounce it right, but going into semantics would just slow the process down, so on with the show!
Pharmacist: Are you still taking it twice daily?
Me: Yeah, that's my dose.
Pharmacist: Okay, thanks!

*phew*

There was sounds of fast typing, and my paranoia imagined the pharmacist talking to the doctor online. He was just typing the new repeat authorization. :)

Pharmacist: Here you go buddy. Do you want a receipt?
I hide my grin.
Me: Yes please, that would be great.
Pharmacist: Here's everything. I also put in a leaflet about generic medicines, it's a good read. This is your repeat authorization, there's one repeat left, 50 days from now. And this is the 200 tablets of dexamphetamine, two tablets to be taken twice daily.
Me: Thank you, I appreciate your help.
Pharmacist: Have a nice trip!
Huh? What is he insinuating? Is he trying to tell me that he knows I'm scripting and he filled it anyway? What would be the appropriate reply then? Oh wait, he's talking about the trip back home. Duh!
Me: Thanks, have a nice day mate.

/me walks out with 1 gram of dextroamphetamine sulfate in the form of two bottles of dexamphetamine containing 100 tablets of 5 mg each.

Remember: Keep a supply - don't cease without Dr's advice!

That's doctor's orders. ;)

Photo Friday - Critters [photofriday.com]

Critters. This is a fairly broad interpretation of the theme. I just came back from dinner with my friends today at Wah Kee in Clayton (Melbourne, Australia). This is probably the last time I'll be eating there as I'm having my final exam paper next week and then I'll be flying back to Malaysia. This is Combination Mun Fun, a rice dish which includes prawns, squid, cuttlefish, BBQ pork, fish, mushrooms, chicken, chestnuts, and vegetables in a bland egg sauce. It tastes good with a (very) liberal sprinkling of vinegar, soy sauce, salt and pepper.

The shooting data:

Focal Length: 8mm
Exposure Mode: Programmed Auto
Metering Mode: Multi-Pattern 1/3.5 sec - f/2.8
Exposure Compensation: 0 EV
Sensitivity: Auto
White Balance: Auto
AF Mode: AF-C
Saturation Compensation: 0

The post-production work was done in Photoshop 7.0 and involves:

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Calling BETA testers!!!

This is an open call for BETA testers for Project Petaling Street [petalingstreet.org] version 1.5.

Project Petaling Street (PPS) is a blog-tal that seeks to aggregate Malaysian content into a single space. Learn more about PPS by visiting the About PPS Wiki [yat.ch]. Currently, PPS aggregates content from a limited number of Malaysian bloggers; we started with the core team submitting their content and that is what you see on PPS today.

This will change very soon. In line with the vision and objectives of PPS, it will begin accepting content from across the Malaysian blogosphere. The development team has been working hard to make this happen since the launch on 12 June 2003, and now we are ready to test the system. For the test to proceed, we will need a team of 20-30 BETA testers who will be willing to devote some time and effort into making it happen. All BETA testers will receive public credit for their contribution when the next version is launched sometime in mid-July.

We are looking for a cross-section of Malaysian bloggers (or non-Malaysians living in Malaysia are also invited to apply) to make up this team. When you email us your application to be a BETA tester, please include the following information:

Full name (real name please, no pseudonyms)

Email address

Your blog name

Your blog URL

Age

Gender

Location (you can be a Malaysian living overseas, no problems)

What type of blogging tool you use? e.g. Movabletype, Blogger, LiveJournal

In a word or two, who would you describe the majority of the content of your blog e.g. current/affairs news, personal journal, technology

Approximately how long have you been blogging i.e. we want a cross section of new and long-time bloggers - the new version has some technical aspects that we want to make sure everyone of all levels of blogging experience and technical capability will be able to use

All appllications should be written to beta@aizuddindanian.com. The closing date for applications is 26 June 2003. Successful applicants will be informed 28 June 2003. BETA testing will commence 30 June 2003 and last for 7-14 days, depending on how long it takes to iron out all the bugs.

Thank you in advance for your applications and support for Project Petaling Street. We expect a large number of submissions for this test. Please understand that we won't be able to accomodate everyone for this round of testing and we sincerely apologize for any possible disappointment that may result from an unsuccessful application.

For further information related to PPS, join the Kota Raya egroup (http://groups.yahoo.com/group/kotaraya/)

CSE3151 @ Caulfield Racecourse Level 2

I did not have enough time to complete the paper. I could not remember a lot of things (damn *mumble*, always messing with my memory) too. Here's hoping that:

Expected Grade: Pass

Candidates may now leave the room QUIETLY.

It has a nice view of the racecourse. Too bad we weren't facing that direction. Ground Floor exams face that direction, but not Level 2, for reasons unknown.

sixthseal.com just got re-reviewed by The Weblog Review [theweblogreview.com]. Thanks obz! [dyndns.org] I was given 4.5/5 this time. I got a 2.5 in the first review. I was still using the old layout then. It looks like this:

Here's the review:

This is a re-review of sixthseal.com

It started with:
"And I beheld when he had opened the sixth seal, and, lo, there was a great earthquake; and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and the moon became as blood; And the stars of heaven fell unto the earth, even as a fig tree casteth her untimely figs, when she is shaken of a mighty wind.
Revelation 6:12-17" ...I knew it was going to be a trip. And oh what a trip Sixth Seal is.

What a crazy read Sixth Seal is. The writers complete candor makes for a engrossing yet disturbing read. The blog consists of entries from hbpoh and veritas (a.k.a. Mr. Foaf) and the content from both is VERY different. All of veritas' entries reveal his strong drug experimentation, of which he gives great detail. He talks about various drugs in his 'trip reports'. They are very disconcerting but it does make for great reading. It was like reading 'trainspotting'. Unbelievable stuff!

Hbpoh is a more typical blogger. With entries about: restaurants, wrestling, trips, vacations, depression, Monash University Clayton Campus, Melbourne, school , SexPo, bills, urinal photos, tennis anyone?, Explosive Diarrhea, Magnum Ice Cream bars and of course his girlfriend. I really enjoyed his writing. He documents his events well with photos, some are rewarding, some disgusting, some artsy...photos say so much. A Funny entry was entitled "Proof that candy bananas are evil". Want to know why? Read the blog. :P

My favourite quote:
"Unix is the only thing I know of that can reduce a grown man to tears. Manly tears, that is..."

The author also experiments with substances:
"I was in the mood for some weed so I decided to sample some Australian hydroponically grown cannabis sativa to determine the THC concentrations present in a typical gram bag. All for the furtherment of science of course. I'm selfless that way. *preens*"

Veritas on Heroin:
"its the feeling of picnics and reading books and eating cheese cake and nice weather and mom taking care of you when you're sick and i've got it! its the feeling of being a kid, where there are no real problems, only little ones, and you don't need to do anything, you just hang around and feel comfortable and they're parents there to take care of you. damn, thats what it feels like. return to childhood. its the feeling of waking up on a saturday morning to the smell of french toast and you just lie around in bed waiting for your mom to call you down to eat breakfast and you've had a great nites sleep and the only thing you want to do is read a good book, a safe book where there are no great problems and everything turns out to be okay in the end. jesus, you just don't get this feeling anymore after you grow up. no wonder people get addicted to this shit. it's really comfortable" .

This blog is an experience. Never before have I felt such a deep impact from reading a blog. If a blog is meant to share an experience then Sixth Seal delivers.
This site was reviewed on 2003-06-19 by obz.
They felt this site belonged in the Personal category.
obz felt that deserved a rating of 4.5.

veritas in the process of IV methamphetamine, taken by trip sitter (doesn't want to be named). Liberal use of smudge to well, smudge details.

IV seems to make meth more like a "fun drug" than a "work drug". That's my thoughts anyway, as always, YMMV. YMMV = Your Mileage May Vary. Having to type that out defeats the purpose of acronyms, but oh well, just in case anyone doesn't know that. Well, back on topic, I did get supervision this time, since I wanted to IV 70 mg (crystal meth). I wouldn't have blinked at insufflating twice that amount, but this is IV so I wanted someone to look out for me since I already had quite a bit and I fear the dose-response curve would be different for IV meth.

Hitting the vein:

These two are probably my last experiments with IV meth, unless there is a reason to continue. I appreciate everyone's concern, but I do have a "safety net" - I'll be going back to Malaysia (for good - graduating) soon, and my access to recreational substances there is very limited, due to family obligations, legislation that strikes fear into the hearts of man and other factors.

IV meth #2

I got another fit pack and this time it only had 2 cotton filters! Wtf??? Why doesn't it match the number of syringes? It can't be all that expensive, so it would make more sense to have 5 filters inside instead of a measly 2. I didn't know that only a small bit of filter is required, no wonder I lost some meth solution to the filter (which I always ate after the shot anyway, so it doesn't matter :p). The real problem to the fit kits is this - the sterile water isn't resealable. There's 10 ml of water, and each syringe will fit only 1 ml (but no one in their right mind uses that much anyway) so the leftovers become...unsterile. The top is a twist off plastic seal and once it's open, it's open. I didn't want to risk using "sterile water" that has been sitting opened for many hours coz bacteria and other stuff might have started a family in there. Being aware of this, I asked for sterile water in smaller single packs and got this:

Astra Water for Injections BP

These comes in a much more sensible 2 ml and it's in glass ampoules. Very nice. These are the snap top vials, you open it by "bending" the glass ampoule at the thinnest point (the yellow line) with one hand on the top and one on the container. It makes a satisfying snap too, and it's a fun thing to do - this belongs in the same category as popping bubble wrap and pressing the round things that your McDonalds drink cover has. I mean the ones that say "Diet", "Regular" and "Other". I can never resist pressing those things, they're just begging for it! :)

Astra Water for Injections BP back

Well, I don't know how much I did, it was 8 shards but that doesn't mean anything at all, considering the wide range of different sizes crystal meth comes in. I gave the spoon a wash with detergent and left it under running hot water for a minute. That's about as close to sterile as I can get, but I think using disposable sterile spoons (do they have these things?) would be better in the long run. I made things more sterile this time. Anyway, I have to be quick so here's the summary:

Opened everything that needs opening without touching the inside:
Pealed syringe wrapper back so I could take it out with my clean hands without touching the wrapper.
Snapped top off the glass ampoule.
Opened box containing meth so I could get them by just touching the crystals.
Went to wash my hands with soap and hot water.
Checked that the spoon has no traces of water (I washed it with hot water and I didn't want drops of that in the spoon)
Used left hand to pick up meth shards and drop into spoon.
Used left hand to pick up glass ampoule and pour an appropriately small amount into spoon.
Used left hand to agitate spoon to make meth dissolve faster.
Used right hand to pick up filter and drop into solution.
Picked up syringe and loaded it through the filter.
Held syringe with left hand (pointing upwards) while alcohol swab pack is opened.
Used right hand to take the alcohol swab and swipe intended injection area. I know my hand is not sterile at this point, but I used the "other" surface of the swab ie not the one I was touching, so that should be okay.
Used left hand to inject solution into right inner elbow.

It's practically begging to be snapped. Go snap it! :)

By the way, the reason I didn't use a tourniquet is because I can see my veins, so there isn't a need for one. It does help though, so I used one in third IV experience, for reasons I will explain later because I have a feeling I'm going to digress again so I'm going to focus. I think I got the medial cubital vein this time, I was aiming for that and there's only two veins I could see in my extreme inner elbow (the part closest to me) so I went for the second one as the picture in Getting Off Right shows. I still have shaky fingers though, and I found that what really helped is taking a couple of deep breaths and then resolutely position the syringe while steadying your hand with the little finger against the arm you're injecting into. Personally, it was much easier to inject with my left hand into my right arm, even though I'm right handed.

I also found that it's better to IV into the veins that are closer to your body, not only because they're easy to spot, but because it makes solo injection easier, due to the way you can steady your fingers against the arm. My trip sitter is only there just in case something bad happens. I do not feel comfortable at the thought of having someone inject me, unless it's a medical doctor or a nurse. :p I'll much rather do it myself, coz I have more control and can modify settings based on sense cues and just for paranoid hypochondriac reasons, I don't want someone sticking a syringe into me, even though I prepared everything myself.

You asked for it...

Anyway, this time I only needed two tries and although my trip sitter isn't going to be awarded Photographer of the Year anytime soon (just kidding hehe!) he managed to get some decent photos out, but most of those would not be posted and the ones that are will need liberal use of the "Smudge" tool in Photoshop. I meant for them to be personal memorabilia only anyway, so the unmodified form are staying in my photo archives. I have photos of myself in the act of consuming/insufflating/injecting most substances, and while they are for my own viewing only, I do sometimes wonder if keeping that is a wise idea. While I don't think anyone would bother to hack my box (my net connection is always on), the possibility of that happening (remote as it can be) exists and the ramifications could be unpleasant.

I would not like my offspring seeing those photos and think that I'm either condoning drug use or lose their respect for me. Do as I say, not as I do. ;) Shh...but I also harbor grand thoughts for my future, so I would not appreciate those photos coming back to haunt me when say, I'm running in an election. Of course, I don't think I'll go into politics, but the same applies to corporate culture, it would be damaging photos, unless society's views on drug use becomes more tolerant, like the way alcohol is viewed now. :)

See what I meant about digressing? I even bore myself sometimes. Anyway, I found it easier this time, the first time I thought I got a vein (it was visible and I stuck right into it) but the plunger test did not produce blood, so I withdrew and stuck it in again on the same vein, but higher up. I pulled the plunger back and *swoosh* (that what I imagine the sound is like :)) blood entered the syringe body in a beautiful way - coming up through the left side and hitting the top of the liquid and swirling back down. Nice! I pushed the plunger and felt the rush almost instantly. It's going to sound cliché, but I'll have to use the word "orgasm" as a point of reference since everyone knows how an orgasm feels like so they can relate to it better. I pushed the plunger and the meth went into my veins and I immediately felt a "building up rush", it actually feels like an orgasm building up, to the "point of no return", and I was so excited, that before the syringe could be emptied, my hand jerked and yep, part of it was shot outside the vein.

IV #2: Swelling when some of the solution was accidentally injected outside the vein towards the end.

I didn't think much of it though, since the rush was much better this time, more "tangible" if that makes sense. However, after that subsided, I noticed that there was a bump forming at the needle entry point. I put a warm (hot at first - ouch!) compress on it, but it the swelling did not subside. I thought that it was going to form an abscess, but it didn't. The swelling went down after a few hours and the only thing left was two very small red marks, which is barely visible now, definitely much more successful than the first try's mutilation, which isn't healing well. The marks are still here today with not much difference in visibility. There seems to be a large bruise around that area too, but I wouldn't worry about it unless I get any other signs that something is up.

IV meth #3

IV drugs is bloody business.

This one involved 70 mg and a minimal amount of water. It seems that the least amount of water necessary should be used because that makes the rush stronger. I did notice a stronger rush when I used less water, but whether that is because more crystals were used or because the solution was less diluted is not known. I'll just quickly go through this one...I prepared the shot as above but the saturated cotton rolled onto the left side of my table which is the dirtiest part of the room!!! This was right before I could draw the solution into the syringe and it should be noted that my trip sitter protested (thank you for your concern) but I put the meth saturated cotton back into the spoon and drew the solution up again.

In hindsight I should have just drunk the solution. I had no filters left except cigarette filters (Marlboro reds) and I've heard contradictory reports on the safety of cigarette filters so, I disregarded the fact that the filter just rolled into the dirtiest part of the room and decided to bang it anyway. Yes, I am Responsible Use personified. :( That was very unwise indeed and it is worrying me. Anyway, I got the vein with just one try this time, using a tourniquet really does help even if you can see the vein, because restricting the blood flow makes the veins bulge so you can gauge how far to inject in. Just remember to UNDO the tourniquet BEFORE injecting.

I didn't tie myself up, but I used a quasi-tourniquet. I think this is pretty handy, basically it works with any T-shirt (and maybe long sleeved shirts too, but why would you be wearing that when you're injecting stuff?). I just bunched up one side of the sleeve (I find the bottom is the best place), "collecting" all the cloth into the side and grabbing it really tightly and then pull while continuing to "grab" more material. When you've grabbed all you can (obviously, don't grab so hard that you rip your shirt unless that's part of your plan), PULL the bit down and keep on pulling. This works like a tourniquet too, it constricts the blood at that point and makes the veins all bulge up. Very nice. I got my trip sitter to hold the cloth till I registered a vein, but you could probably do this solo if you wanted to.

I didn't use that much water. My methods of removing the water (spirited agitating) just got it everywhere except the spoon.

Anyway, I inserted the needle and drew back, and yup, *swoosh*. ;) I depressed the plunger and whoa, this was really too intense! The rush was bordering on uncomfortable, but the stimulation was so intense that I couldn't find the right word to describe it. I looked at my trip sitter and said (shouted) "Yee fucking ha, motherfuckers!!!". =D No, I wasn't swearing at him, the tense isn't right if that were the case. Inappropriate as that sounds, that phrase suddenly came into my brain (for reasons unknown since I have never said that for many, many years) and I just HAD to say it. Guess what my trip sitter said? "You have a wild look in your eyes." Heh. I kid you not! Great guy. I proceeded to listen to music REALLY loud and singing along (another substance involved - see Synergies below) until the rush faded and some semblance of decency returned to me. :)

Anyway, I'm now more confident with IV drug administration and have learnt quite a few things from the experience. 70 mg of crystal meth was too much though, I saw a white/dark light soon after I injected it, it feels like taking a really long blink in bright light. The dose was very "fun" but I don't like the idea of using meth just for goofing off, I prefer to think of it as a "study/work drug", and that IV dose was just unnecessarily high for studying. I do need more than 70 mg when insufflating though, but that doesn't make it less cost effective, since it lasts longer. Regarding injecting techniques I found that that I have to stick the needle in quite far (about 3-5 cm) but this is done at a very low angle. I did it at about 15 degrees, that's a very wide ballpark figure, since I basically eyeballed it. I just inserted the needle at an angle which is produced by steadying my hand with the smallest finger on the arm and slightly rising it to an angle that "looks right". The figures could be totally wrong as I forgot how much a centimeter looks like, and it's different for anyone anyway. I have found my personal insertion values though, it gets easier with practice.

IV #3: Practice makes perfect. Neat and clean needle entry wounds.

Back to the Bad Stuff, I was worried about this shot because it seems to be sore even after a long time. I noticed that my heart hurts as well, but that's pretty common for me on meth. I have hypertension so these shenanigans should probably be avoided. That's not what I'm worried about though - it's endocarditis [emedicine.com] (requires an operation to change the heart valve!) and septicemia [nlm.nih.gov] (bye). I have thought that IV drugs is pretty forgiving since my first try involved needles and cotton that is not sterile and yet nothing bad happened. However, it seems that some symptoms only manifest itself after days or weeks. Now that third shot is definitely dirty (dust, cigarette ash, food remnants etc), should I be worried? The more I read the more symptoms I see in myself. I would love input from experienced IV users.

Synergies:

N2O + meth = INTENSE!

Inhaling...

Still inhaling...

I inhaled a cartridge and half of nitrous (approximate - filled balloon with two cartridges and managed to inhale 3/4 before my meth assisted increased perceived lung prowess quit) while still feeling the rush of meth. Wow! Jesus Christ, that really is something! The nitrous sound distortions are much intensified, hey sounds like "HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY" from the wrong direction. It was bizarre and slightly disturbing. It lasts much longer and intensifies the body high too. You know that buzz your whole body gets on meth? Nangs make it much more noticeable that even sitting felt too intense! The contact of my ass with the chair was buzzing, the sensors were triggering! Nitrous oxide goes so well with the meth rush (and even after the rush) that I feared the two is contraindicated and thought I would stay in nangland forever from brain damage! No, I didn't check beforehand, I seem to be getting irresponsible and impulsive as of late - definitely something I need to reflect on. Lose respect for drugs, and they tend to fuck you up.

The comedown:

Anyway, that is something that I need to think about personally, here's what I typed during the comedown later that night when I had cannabis, salvia (finally got something out of it! :)), nitrous, benzodiazepines and alcohol. The file was found on the desktop today and was entitled (of all things) "very intportant .txt":

on the 5 ccombo coming off meth, actually just tweaked 4 hrs ago, ad ten took 2 g clona plus a benzos i can't tell. not allowed to say. but i haven't had food for 3 days. eveyrthing hit me, nearly forgot the neighrbour is making scart clanging clanging noise lik about to make a complaint. my bong PACKED FULL OF SALVIA tipped over, fuck!!! that was the last bit i wantewd a huge one evern thoguh i'm farly fucked up reite now already! heheheheheheh!
oh ya i keep om forgetting stuff, i wanted to tell yo usth but i forgot i doulbt i can act sober rite npw too and damn ineed to reheat my food. oh i suddden;ly remembered watned to tell you salvia5x extract is sticky. :)
hmm i can't find my balloong for n2o and found it hiding under cannabis sherrederm the cardi keep all my shredded weed on, i suually shread enough for anite only though, i keep on forgetting thins so no point to correct spelling . oh ya scrolled back and found that i was supped to tell you the missing balllong for n2s was hiding under the card i shred mj on, the card is nifty greeting card, i usually shred enough for a day or two max
:)

i burned my thumb quite badly (blisters) while smoking salvia coz i wanted to take a huge fucking ass hit and didn't realize until 30 sec later that the flame is flickering into my head. i saw a dead woman (but not scart's face and head seleeping on my pillow i burt my hand just now coz the lighter was under it and all my reactions s lowed so i dunno until my brain says "says ouch" our brian controls us instead of the other way round. show them burnt hand pic
pics will not be good quality coz bvery blur now and can't be bothered taking pics
bye
ohj i know why it buned me now its coz when i dun inhale the flame is directly burning my hand, duh so stupid and didn't realize it and now i will have blisters on my thumb, wanted to smoke everything out of that bowl. alll the salvia i mean, coz you can predict was i'm going to say and suggest it to me
ie just burn the flamer, i amd so out of it now
not seconds later i just had this convo with my friend:

Friend (11:18 PM) :
wanna go 2 maccas at 12 later?
veritas (11:21 PM) :
ah sorry i am terrible so much out of it that i cannot evyerhting is a blur and filled with red spots now bizzare
veritas (11:21 PM) :
would love to eat though
but cna't present myself to the public with all this red spots, very consistant, covers whole viewfield i'm seeing
veritas (11:21 PM) :
sorry dude
Friend (11:22 PM) :
hahaha alrite dude!
veritas (11:22 PM) :
hehehe
see ya later buddy
hafve a nice good eat for me at maccas
:)
Friend (11:22 PM) :
haha have a nice time too
veritas (11:22 PM) :
hehehe
yeah lasst break b4 serious study have to be dome
Friend (11:23 PM) :
yeah
beter get some studying done
veritas (11:25 PM) :
yeah
gohgta study too
good luckl mate!
Friend (11:25 PM) :
good luck too!
veritas (11:25 PM) :
thanks buddy
:)

bizzare as man and one of the catridges are duds
damn now i only have one left
i thought this was icq coz got ppl talking to me right now and i press controk plus s to send and thought hmm how come nothing happen and dudh reakuzed i amm= in notepate
bye see ya

very biaaaro conversation i felt quite a lot of things now and oh the bulk was alright after all, i think it just needs to be pierced harder i am so sleepy now oh got a depression at the n20 catrg head and it wasn't broken, just "pressed into and the someone msg me and confused me yes just pressed ito it but not breakng it and the bulburater confused me so hard i dunno how to work it out yet typing is like second nater. was planning t osleep now aftre days of no sleep. :)
man i lost the fcraker top and found it in all places a pizza box

i am seriously tihinking wat the neo whao this is the fucking best fmost fucking barrae!!!! fcikiung seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!! ui am like numb all ove and everttguing is red and i feel like i am center of universe of a place with no people , so i fly in solitute sadly over a city of no peaople
luckily i saw this last post, i mean i was seriously thinking wat the neighbour must think of the strange noises coming from my room. first the bong sound of partkating in mj , and that sound is quite distinctinve wit ha bong, and then sounds for forced inhaling and holging it in for a long time for the nos, reli gave a twist on everything, remind me to tell you that n20 is fucking awesoe on meth!!!! like you're having an orgasasm but even better coz this includet the ENTIRE body!!!
shit i think i lsot hte plot, i mean i wonder wat the neigh will think of the strange noise, mhj smoking with a bong, a very distrinctive sound, and the forced inhaling from balllons and breathing back for recycling really loud and it must sound like someone is needing medical attn and the doors did shut and close hmm oh ya one final post, the "dud" catrdige is not dud after all, just need to apply harder than usual pressure. okay -end-
n i forgot typiny w 1 ha nd now forgot about, oops myt ballooniis leaking gas i meab wat da neigh will think at the disctinctive sounds of nitrous relasing from a cracker, the fillng of ballong and me inhaling it but oh well ,reli hungry now and gonna heat up my meal mmm...this is the first solid food in 3 days and i prep multivite already (it is in front of me at the kb) so i'll eat now bye everyone!

Everything is left intact and unedited, except for the chat log (only names have been replaced) and the three photos are not part of the original file. I think it was the nitrous oxide and salvia divinorum that made me incoherent since I've had the other 3 together plenty of times before during meth comedowns and they never made me sprout such retarded stuff. :) I just lost the plot over there.

Related: Meth IV Part I [sixthseal.com]

This is written by CT:

OK Guys,
This Is Easy Peasy, follow me:

1. Get one bulb, take it to Bunnings. Go to the plumbing section and find the copper fitings the look like those in the photos.
2. Find a Cap like the bit that unscrews (make sure its just the right size for the bulb to fit in)
3. Find the "middle bit" from the photos here (male to male adapter) make sure its the same size as the cap so they screw into one another. (also check the bulb fits into this snug (not so snug that it doesnt have a little clearance on the sides).
4.Finde a "Male to Male" reducer (the bit on the end in the photo) this should fit the bulb in it at one side but reduce to a smaller size at the other end.
5. Now buy some nice sturdy screws with wide bottoms (the bit you stick a skrew driver into) make sure they are not to long
5. Buy some epoxy glue (you know it looks like a double syringe) Also some plumbers tape (the white stuff in the photos.
6.Put a screw in the base of the cap, put a bulb in the tube (male to male addapter) like the screw up so that it consides with the part of the bulb that you need to pierce. NOW DO NOT MOVE IT (blue tac helps here) Now get your epoxy and fill the cap about half up with it. BE VERY CAREFULL not to get the glue on the thread of the upper half of the cap or you will reck the cap and need to get another.
7. Let this dry.
8. Get some wire (reasonable thick) and twist into a circle. Cut half this so you have a half circle of wire (maybe even just cut a quarter of the wire.
9. Force this down the male to male reducer (it allows the gas to pass the end of the bulb. (i realy need pictures here, will talk to veritas)
10. Once dry you have a working cracer. "The Nanganator 3000" heheheh

Thanks for all the comments regarding my first time IV use. I'll reply everyone when I get back, I need to do something now. I'll also write Part II (of course there's a sequel ;)) later - stay tuned! :)

Original review for The Weblog Review here: minishorts@urban-flirt [theweblogreview.com].

minishorts@urban-flirt

Before I begin this review, I have to state that minishorts is a blog I have been reading
regularly for quite a while, and the owner is on my ICQ contact list. That being said,
I'll try to offer a review that's as unbiased as possible, and one that may offer
additional insight into the site which is afforded by knowing the author. Minishorts
has been online since September 2002 and the first post involves three pieces of
poetry which the author wrote. I particularly enjoyed the one entitled "Dearest
Mother" which manages to be touching without being clichéd.

The weblog is a mix of the author's thoughts about everything and also her
personal issues, with occasional posts which provides a very intimate view into the
author's life. An example of this is the January 14th 2003 post which has pictures of
her bedroom, complete with photos of the bed, her wardrobe (with clothes) and the
author herself. Minishorts is a 23 year old Chinese Malaysian doing her Masters in
Linguistics and the blog is representative of what personal weblogs in Malaysia are
all about. The author aspires to be a writer and she occasionally posts bits of
ongoing stories in the blog.

The entries are updated consistently, and the author manages to post even while
on vacation in Hong Kong, using the hotel's business center's net connection. The
posts have a nice smattering of photos at appropriate intervals and this manages to
prevent the monotony in reading an all-text blog and provides a window into the
author's world. There are plenty of pictures of the author's and her friends and one
can't help but feel like they're with the author as she goes through her life. There are
photos of her trips, her convocation and so forth and reading the blog feels like
watching one of those time delayed footage of a plant going through the growth
process of a bud to a flower. This and the always entertaining posts is what keeps me
going back for more.

The design of the site has recently been changed into one featuring a Matrix
layout, with a non-standard horizontal scroll bar. The content of the blog is featured
in a window of the left side, followed by a large Neo, and leading into the tagboard.
The tagboard is dynamically replaced by things like minishort's bio, links, credits
and so forth when one of the navigation buttons is clicked. However, the links are
images which doesn't provide anything to suggest where it leads to, except when the
hover text comes up. This "mystery meat" navigation does not seem to be a good
design strategy.

Someone pointed out in an email that there are essentially two kinds of weblogs
- the personal ones and the ones that provide social commentary on current issues
and news. This blog belongs to the first group and if you like those, you'll love
minishorts. If you don't, well I guess you won't, but click on the link anyway and
see if the site will change your mind. I'm giving it a 4.5 because I honestly think it's
a very interesting site. This would be interesting for you too if you'll like a voyeuristic
look into the life of a 23 year old in Malaysia.

This site was reviewed on 2003-06-14 by sixthseal.
They felt this site belonged in the Personal category.
sixthseal felt that minishorts@urban-flirt deserved a rating of 4.5

Link to site: minishorts@urban-flirt [urban-flirt.net].

The link is on the sidebar too.

veritas Meth IV - mainlining

This is my first time injecting a drug. I once said that I would try everything once - except needles. Syringes and IV drug users seem to have a bad reputation even amongst recreational drug users. It would be funny if it didn't sound slightly hypocritical. However, I have absolutely no right to pass judgment as I previously subscribed to the "everything except injecting" school of thought too. What happened? I can honestly say that it's the pursuit of knowledge and experience in my favorite past time that lead me to experimentation with IV administration of recreational substances.

Remember, possession of an illicit substance remains illegal

I have been thinking about this for a while and the catalyst was S (not her real name) - talking to her finally got me determined to IV something before I head home. Cross out one of the "Things To Do Before I Leave Melbourne List" items, there's only 5 left now (the last one is the mega mega super duper ultra drug binge to end all drug binges - stay tuned!) . ;) It's easy to get syringes and other paraphernalia here - they're all sold over the counter at pharmacies. Most pharmacies also stock "fit kits", a pack containing everything that is necessary for safer IV drug user - syringes, filters, sterile water, antiseptic wipes and a disposal container for used syringes. It's harm reduction, a good practice to avoid the unnecessary and totally avoidable health issues that tends to manifest itself when clean, cheap injecting equipment is not available.

Unfortunately, Malaysia seems to have adopted the opposite stance - syringes are not freely available, leading to drug users reusing dirty syringes and causing the transmission of disease through this vector. Sharing used syringes leads to the transmission of blood borne diseases and this can easily be avoided by providing new syringes to everyone, but no...the current legislation keeps those things out of the hands of drug users, leading to a stigma associated with IV use. The parliament seems intent to concatenate a H to IV drug use by barring the users from access to clean equipment. It's really sad that the government back home does not think this is a good preventive measure in the interests of public health. Anyway, ever since the chat with S, I've been reading up and researching about intravenous drug use and finally decided on two substances - IV meth and IM ketamine.

The high grade methamphetamine crystals

I have since decided not to IM (intramuscular injection) ketamine, after receiving advice that doing that with street ketamine powder will likely result in abscesses. I have access to pharmaceutical grade ketamine in vials, but the price is prohibiting, so that leaves IV (intravenous injection) methamphetamine. I was looking into syringe driven micron filters [tas.gov.au] (also called wheel filters, pill filters) - these are devices that filter out the impurities and bacteria that tends to call recreational substances home. However, these things aren't cheap and they're single use only, plus I have to travel quite a distance to the nearest place that stocks them (normal pharmacies do not carry specialty injecting equipment) so I didn't obtain the filters - justifying that the crystal meth I get is about as pure as it gets.

Anyway, I went to the local chemist today and bought a "sharps kit" for A$5 in preparation for my IV adventures. The kit contains:

5 x 1 ml Terumo U-100 single use insulin syringes (29G)

29 gauge - all the better to prick you with. ;) A larger gauge number means the needle diameter is smaller, so a 19G needle is thicker than a 29G needle, which is in turn thicker than a 30G needle.

5 x antiseptic wipes

These are alcohol swabs - contains isopropyl alcohol

10 ml "Water for Injections BP" in a nice plastic bottle

Pharmacia & Upjohn branded sterile water. I feel so spoilt. ;)

3 x cotton filters

What is the logic behind this??? 5 syringes and 3 filters? Reusing filters is not a good practice!

1 x mini sharps container

Biohazard - Sharps Bin

This is a container you put used needles in for disposal. Do not reuse syringes! Do not share syringes or equipment! That holds true even with yourself ie don't reuse your own syringe too. Anyway, this container is very nifty. I thought the design was odd at the beginning since I had to push hard to get the syringe's "wings" into the disposal container. After a while, it just hit me (yes, I'm slow) that the design is intentional, it's to avoid syringes from falling out from the disposal container, that isn't possible because the "wings" are too big to come through without some pushing from the other end, and the other end is sealed! Thoughtful design, makes it less of a safety concern.

Used syringes can't fall out

This is a great pack for just A$5 - it has everything you need (except for micron filters, but that's nitpicking) for safer injecting of drugs and I think it's something all countries need to have. A lot of the serious health issues surrounding IV use can be totally prevented if users have access to these equipment. Personally, I don't understand how some IV users can bear to share and use dirty equipment - the same way I can't understand how some people can go to brothels and have sex with prostitutes. I'll tell you the truth, I'm hypochondriac and I would never risk contracting a disease, so the patterns of thought these people seem to have is foreign and interesting (in a morbid way) to me.

Classic 90 degree spoon for preparing the shot. I just bent the handle.

But then again, some people would think the same way about me and my recreational drug use, which may seem self-destructive and risky to them. This is an interesting issue if you think about it, everyone has different ideas about what constitutes risky behavior and nothing would change their minds. I realize the futility in getting an anti-drug person to look at the issue from my point of view - the same way that no one can ever convince me to go to a brothel because the risk is unacceptable to me. Punters can sprout all the logic and statistics they want about the relative safety of condoms, but would I ever take the risk? No, and nothing can change my mind. This is probably true for the anti-drug people too. Will they ever see it from our point of view? Probably not.

Meth crystals dissolving in sterile water - squint and you'll see it

I'm sorry about digressing so far, but in my defense I have consumed 350 mg of meth in two days so I may be slightly talkative here. Slightly. :) Anyway, back on topic, I see now that there's no point in trying to get anti-drug people to relax their hard stance...it just isn't possible. I used to think that this is because they are ignorant about the facts concerning drug use, and that might be true in some cases, but not all. Back to the analogy, am I aware of the safety data regarding condoms? Yes. Would I take the risk? Never. I see that the issue is not always one of ignorance, but of what we're raised to fear. I fear the diseases that can be transmitted through high risk sexual intercourse, because I was born in the year HIV came into public consciousness, so I will never take the risk nor will I ever see it from their point of view. They fear the dangers (whatever that may be - brain damage? overdose? who knows?) which comes with recreational drug use, so they will never take the risk nor will they ever see it from my point of view.

Cotton filter dropped in to absorb the solution

Okay, I'm done being Plato, I'm going back to the main post now. Stop me if I digress again. :) Anyway, I decided to inject myself with some crystal meth today. I have done much research before making the jump and I suggest you do the same if you are considering this method of administration, as the risks are greater than other routes of consumption. I found that the best resource out there is this guide by the Harm Reduction Coalition:

Getting Off Right - A Safety Manual for Injection Drug Users [harmreduction.org]

I suggest that you read everything in there since it is a very good manual with balanced and unbiased facts about the risks of injecting drugs. It has a whole chapter devoted to this, and I'll be lying if I said it didn't give me pause when I first read it. Septicemia, endocarditis, necrotizing fasciitis, wound botulism etc etc. This manual really does give you all the facts straight out, no bullshit or propaganda to color their agenda, and that gives it a lot of credibility. Invaluable.

Drawing up the solution through the cotton filter into the syringe

Anyway, after reading through the manual several times, I compiled a list of techniques which would provide the safest way for me to administer crystal meth intravenously. Here's the information I gathered:

Disclaimer: This is a FIRST TIME INJECTING user's account of his experience. I am NOT experienced at all in this route of administration and the methods I use might be totally wrong and dangerous. I'm only documenting my experience and I'm NOT experienced enough to give advise. This is just a compilation of techniques I've researched about and used myself. It is NOT ADVICE so don't treat it as such. I say again that the methods I'm using could be WRONG and DANGEROUS. Please don't inject anything until you've sufficiently researched the subject and analyzed the risks involved.

Use the alcohol swab to swipe ONCE and ONCE ONLY. The reason behind this is that if you keep swabbing around in circles (like I planned to do) is you'll be moving any bacteria around and around so it'll still be on the point of penetration. Swiping ONCE is what I've read to be the best way.

Use alcohol to sterilize your fingers before you touch anything! That includes the spoon, the filters (don't roll the cotton beforehand), the syringe etc.

Get "sterile, medical grade" cotton. Make sure that the first filter (cotton filter) is rolled up in a tight ball. I read that this makes it more efficient in filtering.

Methamphetamine dissolves easily in water. I've read that heating the substance increases the chance that the cuts will be dissolved, so don't heat it, just wait for it to dissolve or use the "cold shake" method.

Sterile water ampoules only! This can be bought at most pharmacies, they will sell it to you no questions asked. The same goes for syringes, so there's no excuse for not using a new syringe each time, even with yourself!

PRACTISE FIRST! I stuck myself with the syringe several times and practiced drawing back to check if I've hit a vein. You can also experiment with injecting sterile water to get the technique right. DO NOT reuse the syringe even though you're just practicing on yourself. You can introduce bacteria and other things if you reuse syringes. Syringes are designed for single use only. Needless to say it's FUCKING STUPID to share syringes. If you can afford the drugs, you can afford the syringes!

Vein = blood when you draw slightly back.
Artery = gush of blood when you insert the syringe. DO NOT PROCEED!

Check the barrel of the syringe to see if there are any visible particles. Do not proceed if you see anything visible to the naked eye, either re-filter or drink the shot. :p

Inject in arms only (safest site) and direct the needle TOWARDS your heart (not away from it, like in the movies). The needle should have the bevel opening facing up, inject at the correct angle and site - refer to GOR.

Try to remove all air bubbles from the barrel of the syringe before injecting.

I thought I was prepared. I didn't realize that IV is much harder than it seems! It's not as easy as sticking the syringe into your arm and depressing the plunger. You can see the visible track marks of my unsuccessful attempts in the photos below. I was at a loss regarding the injection site since every single vein seems to have been punctured and I harbor a superstitious thought that injecting in that one will result in the solution squirting out again at the previous puncture wound. Heh. I know, I know, it sounds silly, and experienced IV users will be tempted to laugh at my superstitions, but everyone was new once. ;)

Anyway, my first time was riddled with mishaps and other entertaining (to you, but unfortunately not to me) shenanigans and I ended up disregarding the safety framework that I had planned. Please, do not do what I did, I'm just documenting my first experience with IV drug use, which involved a lot of unwise decisions. The first one is the lack of a trip sitter. I had arranged for CT to trip sit me, but that will have to take place at my room, where there would inevitably be incriminating conversation going on, which might be overhead by the neighbors (damn those thin walls) and could result in unwanted consequences.

Thus, I decided to go on this quest alone, which in hindsight was a very stupid thing to do, but at least there were some safeguards in place ie I was going to meet him in an hour so it wasn't totally stupid of me. I guess this is what tends to happen with illegal substances - sometimes the fear of being legally prosecuted is greater than the thought of any possible threat to self due to unsupervised first time IV use. The thing I was worried about was not an overdose or unexpected reaction, but the possibility of a neighbor overhearing our conversation and possibly reporting it, resulting in a conviction just 2 weeks before I'm due to leave Melbourne for good. That would be terrible indeed! I have been lucky so far, and I hope it doesn't run out before I leave.

That said, the second unwise thing I did was to disregard all sanitary precautions after the first few unsuccessful attempts. I'm not afraid of needles, so I feel comfortable sticking it into my flesh, but that doesn't mean I'm not nervous since it's my first time. My hands were shaking, and that resulted in a lot of aborted injections eg sticking the needle in and then withdrawing it accidentally again due to trembling hands. The first time I attempted to inject, I realized that I had totally forgotten about the alcohol swabs! The needle was already in my skin, so there's nothing much that could be done by then.

I had a bit of trouble even before that due to my inexperience with syringes. I had a lot of trouble drawing up liquid into the syringe and was puzzled by this lack of pressure despite the insistent plunger manipulation I was doing. Well guess what? I stuck the needle through the cotton instead of into it. I didn't even realize this and kept puzzling over the plunger until I thought it was broken and opened up a new syringe to try again, with the same results. Duh! I only realized the mistake when I touched the cotton (wet so it's not the source of the problem) and saw the needle sticking THROUGH the cotton. I overshot the mark, no wonder I wasn't getting any liquid into the syringe body.

I find that the cotton does steal quite a bit of meth solution too. The amount I drew into the syringe is inconsistent with the amount I put into the spoon. The first time I put 4 largeish crystal meth shards into the spoon and dropped a small amount of sterile water onto it. I did not heat up the solution, since meth dissolves readily in water. I only had to shake the spoon around a bit to make it dissolve faster since I did not crush up the crystals (didn't want to introduce impurities) beforehand. Meth = very water soluble though, and the crystals dissolve readily. However, the solution I drew up into the syringe isn't as much as I put in and I had to keep adding drops of water to the cotton to make the syringe draw more liquid. There seems to be a certain saturation point though, where the syringe will only get more air and the remaining moisture of the cotton could not be recovered this way so I, ah...ate it. It's not poisonous (I hope) and it would be a waste to throw away a still moist cotton so, yeah I just chased it down with some Ural and water. :p

Anyway, the first few attempts to locate a vein were not easy. I could see the veins, and I could insert the needle into it, but the needle always came out when I pulled the plunger back due to my unsteady hands. I have to pull the plunger to confirm that I'm in a vein, there would be blood flowing into the barrel if I was and I needed that visual confirmation. Every single time I pulled back the plunger, the needle came out as well. I changed the syringe every time that happened to avoid blunt needles, but I was down to the last two and I couldn't be bothered anymore. I just wanted to hit a vein, bang it and get it over with!

Increasing number of puncture wounds

It was easier said than done though, due to my shaky hands (nerves, nerves). By the end of the session, I had 8 large puncture wounds and 6 smaller ones. It wasn't the pain that bothered me, I don't feel much pain at all since I think I have a fairly high pain threshold. It was the damned frustration at consistently fucking up every shot. I had thought IV was a simple matter of finding a vein, sticking the syringe in and pushing the plunger. It wasn't so. I spent half and hour changing syringes at first, draining the solution back into the spoon and loading another syringe up for a new try, taking care to use the alcohol swabs, but by the end of it, I was ready to give up and just wanted to HIT A VEIN, WHY IS IT SO HARD?!?!?

I missed a shot too, due to my impatience. I was terribly frustrated at this tediousness and decided to push the plunger anyway, no need for confirmation. I picked a vein, stuck the syringe in and pushed. Ouch! No rush, but the skin surrounding the area swelled up. Fuck, I missed the vein and wasted the shot. I was very pissed off at this point since I was angry at my inaptitude at doing something that seems to be easy in theory. I rubbed the swelling site as S recommended, but that did not reduce the swelling. I didn't want to touch the open wound with my fingers too, since by this time, all precautions to maintain sterility has been abandoned and my hands were bound to be dirty since I was handling other things as well (like the digicam).

I was getting very frustrated and regretted not having CT come over and trip sit me, because that would leave both my hands free and clean since I won't have to touch the digicam in my attempts to document my first experience. However, the missed shot made me all the more determined to hit a vein and I prepared another solution for injecting. It should be noted that even though I missed the vein, I did feel the meth from the missed shot. There isn't a "rush" but I was noticeably getting tweaked after a while, it seems that meth is active when administered via injection by "skin popping" too.

The tweaked condition didn't help with the shaky hands, if anything it made it worse, but it did make me more focused and resolute in getting an IV shot into me. I will tell you some of the hygienic precautions that were discarded at this point. I won't even pretend that the syringe is sterile anymore, and neither is it sharp, since several failed penetrations have been made and I accidentally hit the bottom of the spoon with the tip when I drew the solution into the barrel. The shot was definitely not sterile because:

The needle went through my shirt (!) by accident
I wish I was kidding. I only had one syringe left at this point so I had to pretend I didn't notice this happened. The incident occurred when I reached for the sterile water to add to the cotton. I somehow managed to stick the needle through the right hand side of my shirt while fumbling with the water. It didn't pierce my body, but just went through the front of the shirt and penetrated out the back. Okay...I'll just forget that happened, ho hum. *cough* Yeah, I did proceed with the injection with the very same needle. Please don't do this.

The needle dragged on a chair (...)
Yes, this is the same needle that got the shirt treatment. I'll give away a spoiler here, the needle is also the same one I managed to successfully hit a vein and bang that shit. ;) Whatever ramifications this will produce, I will find out tomorrow, but currently, the puncture wounds are swollen and they seem to be painful when touched. Anyway, the needle dragged over my chair while fumbling with a spoon. It made a screeching sound too, so even though I could pretend I didn't see that happen, I couldn't pretend I didn't hear it. But I was very frustrated at this point and thought "Fuck it, no one sits in this chair except me anyway". Welcome E.coli.

The cotton fell off the spoon and rolled onto the chair
Despite my articulate attempts to bend the spoon so that it can remain erect on a surface without any aid, the laws of gravity got the better of me and the spoon tipped to the side and the cotton rolled onto the chair surface. Luckily, the solution has been absorbed by the cotton so no spillage occurred, but the wet cotton was certainly not sterile anymore. I did not really care at this point since the needle wasn't sterile anyway, so I just noted that it rolled onto the surface of the chair, nonchalantly put it back and drew up the solution like nothing out of the ordinary happened. :p

Not very pretty, that's for sure

However, this syringe was the lucky one. 10 units (0.1 ml) of solution was inside the chamber, with a very large air bubble, which I could not manage to dislodge despite my best attempts. I shook it, I tapped it, I turned the syringe upside down, I even squirted some solution out and refilled the chamber, but nope, the air bubble insists on being there. Oh well, the "air bubble causes pulmonary embolism/stroke" is a myth anyway, so on with the show, I said. Please don't quote me on this, it's just something I remembered reading on bluelight, and I don't know if it's a fact or it really is a myth, but I'm still very much alive if that tells you anything. I think it's an unsafe practice though, so read up on it before you decide whether or not this poses a significant risk.

Preparing the shot

Hmm...is anyone still with me? This is getting very long. I appreciate you reading so far, thanks for sharing my experience. :) Anyway, this one is the lucky syringe, I finally managed to enter a vein and pulled the plunger back without the needle falling out. I think it was either the Medial Cubital Vein or the Basilic Vein. I pulled the plunger back and I was elated to see a flush of blood entering the chamber! This is it! I've hit the vein and the needle is still firmly in, the bevel opening is facing upwards and I'm injecting towards my heart. The stars aligned!

The shot that finally hit a vein! The angle is wrong, I injected the syringe towards me, but it shifted to the side when I finished injecting and moved my hand away to take a photo before drawing the needle out. Look at the bottom of the syringe barrel - there's some blood clotted there. That's my visual confirmation - I pulled the plunger back, blood flooded in. We have a vein! :)

I took a deep breath and pushed the plunger slowly but smoothly, emptying it in about 3 seconds. What does IV meth feel like? It felt like a slap in the face. :) I have been tweaking for two days and had consumed 1/4 gram of meth the night before, and this shot couldn't have been more than 50 mg maximum (crystal meth) but it hit me alright. I was desensitized (as one tends to get) after the previous night's tweaking, but fuiyoh, the rush! The rush from IV meth! I felt like I was being reanimated! I would say that the amount is too much, because I think my brain nearly exploded. :)

My blood clotting on the needle bevel

It feels like...a slap in the face in the middle of an orgasm. Clichéd as it sounds, the rush is a real rush. It felt like the first time I had insufflated a really big line of meth, it hit me like a ton of bricks and I was dizzy for a while. It was worth every puncture wound I made throughout the night, this experience is something that needs to be experienced to appreciate. Did I just make a personal demon (I love meth) even stronger? Would I end up in poverty and die all alone in the cold, cold streets of Melbourne?

Well, no. I loved the rush, it's fucking amazing and this is one of the rare times when profanity is justified and even required to enlist as a potentiating adjective. :) What I did not like was the duration...what a waste! I would say I was tweaked (my scale might differ from yours) for 3 hours. Insufflating usually lasts 6 hours for me and oral meth with alkalanizers can provide me with the mental stimulation I crave for 10 hours (albeit a lot is required for oral use). The disappointing duration (but the rush exceeds my expectations :)) together with the fact that my left arm is a fucking mess would not make this method a favorite with me. The swelling has since gone down after a warm compress was applied but the puncture wounds are still very much visible and probably would not heal until a couple of days has passed. I was afraid that the sterility issues would produce an abscess which would require medical attention, but it seems that the worries are unjustified. I checked again and it seems that the healing process is proceeding nicely, though a bit too slow for my liking. Hmm...does anyone notice that I have fits of "old skool" type sentences once in a while? I blame that on H.P. Lovecraft, it's all I've been reading on my commute lately.

Anyway, I have put two Band-Aids over the puncture wounds, which I got from CT, many thanks for that. CT has never failed to be helpful and he's a great friend indeed and at the risk of sounding not completely hetero (not that there's anything wrong with that), I would miss him when I go back because it's not easy to find someone that shares the same interests and is a nice guy to boot. I sure have learnt a lot from him and we're currently working on probably the last collaborative project (Codename: Project M.C.) before I go back. Project M.C. is top secret, off the record, on the QT and very hush hush so I will not be blogging about it. I will be writing it for a personal archive, and I will post that once the "statute of limitations" pass. That has been agreed to be 3 years, so if you really want to know, remind me to post about Project M.C. today in 2006. I assure you it will be an interesting read. ;)

Well, back on topic, I would try IV meth again when my wounds heal, maybe once or twice max. It's not that I'm scared of the potentially all too lovable rush that IV meth provides, the rush is good, hell, it's fucking great, but the hassle involved in preparing the shot and the short duration (dammit) would not make this method appealing for me. Two minutes of feeling like God and 3 hours of feeling like a Saint. That is my experience with IV meth. Insufflation gives me 5 minutes of Demi-God status and 6 hours of Sainthood. I would go choose the latter over the former.

Besides, I'll have a lot of explaining to do if the track marks from my amateur jabbings do not heal as quickly as I hope it will. ;)

P/S - Part II of methamphetamine IV here [sixthseal.com].

Erimin (nimetazepam) packaging - front

This ill researched, sensationalist tabloid story here is another example of how the media is contributing to the bad image recreational drug users have to put up with. I will not link it - not because we're competing for SERPs on "Erimin" (I don't compete for keywords, I just try to get mine out there), but because it's pure, steaming bullshit. The article is about Erimin-5 pills, but it is written more to sensationalize than to provide concise facts. What do you expect from a tabloid? I mean for fucks sake, do you really need to put caps in the title? Does that really sensationalize the thrashy "article" all that much?

Erimin (nimetazepam) packaging - back

Just so you can check it out, here's the link (start from http and paste every other line, including the numbers until html), you have to do a bit of cut and pasting coz I do not link to poorly researched anti-drug propaganda:
http://newpaper.asia1
Hello, I'm Joycelyn Wong.
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I do not know much about benzodiazepines.
p/story/0,4136,
but I'll like to write an article about it anyway.
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because you know, I have a Phd. in Sensationalist Writing (Applied Tabloids)
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and my research was on How to Sample a Population 101
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It's not that hard really, just pick (or invent) some random guys called Nicky and Ryan and get them to make sweeping statements and pass on personal experiences as fact.

No, there is no room for words such as "may", "seems", "feel". Those words leave room for alternative views! They are bad! My doctorate taught me that it's much more effective to pass off opinions as facts. Fuck the truth, no room for that here, people want to hear about third hand "experiences" (the more sensationalist the better!) like "addicts stealing from a shop" coz we all know that drug users are fucking scum, they are liars, they are thieves and they are no better than dogs. No, we won't be touching any of that stuff. Now, let us have promiscuous unprotected sex and pass HIV around because sex is good and drugs are bad, mmmkay? Mmmkay.

Flunitrazepam = bad

Dangerous substances like flunitrazepam should be avoided, okay! They have been found in the fake Erimin-5 pills and they can make you unconscious, and I must bring up the date rape issue, because we all know that drug users do that! Evil corrupt fucks! Stay away from the dirty junkies, hang out with the frat boys and the pretentious clubbers because they won't do that to you. No, not them, they're the Good Guys.

Be careful of benzos okay! They cause convulsions!!! What? Benzodiazepines have anticonvulsant activity? They are marketed as anti-epileptics? I see...so it's withdrawal after long term benzo therapy that may cause convulsions, oops I got it the other way round. My bad. I don't know anything about that, I didn't do any research actually...shh! I don't even know that Upjohn is a pharmaceuticals company, I thought it was a drug name. What's that? Upjohn merged with Pharmacia and the merged company got acquired by Pfizer? I don't really care about all that, it's just history. But hmm...isn't Pfizer the one that made Viagra? Now that I know, that's good stuff indeed. Benzo = bad, sildenafil = good. You know...I thought the imprint is the drug name! Hmm...there are many benzos out there with the Upjohn imprint you say? You're confusing me, please stop, I only know that drugs are bad, mmmkay??? Mmmkay!

The Famous Five (by Enid Blyton)

Benzodiazepines cause hallucinations too!!! Yes, full blown opened eye visuals, I'm not fucking kidding you, they are bad ok! Ricky told me so. Er...I mean Nicky. That's what I wrote in the tabloid article right? *double checks* Yeah, Brian told me so, oh sorry, I mean Ryan. Note to self: Keep the names consistent. Okay, now I'm going to write about Death! Dr Brian Yeo, who is a well respected general practitioner, says that nimetazepam causes DEATH (!!!) when taken in large amounts. He's a doctor so he's always right.

What? The Merck Index says nimetazepam has an oral LD50 of 750mg/kg for mice and 970mg/kg for rats? Who the fuck is Merck? Come to think of it, what is the highest dose per tablet for Erimin-5? 5 mg of nimetazepam is the strongest preparation you say? Humans seem to have a higher LD50 than mice/rats on benzodiazepines [inchem.org], but just for statistical purposes, let us assume the LD50 for mice is the LD50 for humans. Now then...that hypothetical human (as unfortunately benzodiazepines are very safe when taken alone even at high doses) would have to take 150 tablets at once to have a 50% chance of dying.

[Edit: Curse my poor math...why didn't a more gifted person pick this up? :p A human would need much more than that, since it's 750 mg per kg, so following the mice LD50, a 60 kg person would need 9000 mg or 1,800 pills! (I have mastered the art of selective use of bold for text too) If you really have that much, please consider suicide using an alternative method, since it would be quite painful to consume that many tablets at once.]

That is assuming that the nimetazepam is all absorbed at once. Brian, did you skip one too many med school classes?

That is the Sumitomo Pharmaceuticals logo and their internal code - 028

Erimin is made by Sumitomo Pharmaceuticals [sumitomopharm.com]

This took a damn long time to search for, so please thank me. :p I've always wondered who made Erimin, and information is scarce and unreadable (Japanese) on the net. I've heard it attributed to Landsen etc., I know it's made in Japan, but I don't exactly know who made it...until today. Sumitomo don't actually have nimetazepam or Erimin listed in their products catalogue, but look at the Sumitomo logo and look at the Erimin-5 pill. Mystery solved, feels good to get to the end of this at last!

Anyway, the tabloid article isn't without merit, as I did learn two things today. That is assuming that this source can be trusted (and that's a very big assumption, when presented with the current data):
1. Flunitrazepam was taken off the market in Singapore in 1998.
2. My poor secluded state (or maybe it's just me :p) is getting shafted with Erimin-5 prices.

The end of the article states that 55,000 Erimin 5 pills were seized fairly recently, and the street value was quoted at S$440,000. That means each pill is going for S$8, and we all know how the media and the law enforcement elements like to inflate the "estimated street value" of drugs, so let's half that price to S$4. That's RM 8 per pill and the street price in my town is RM 15. I mean, I just heard and all, not that I've been partaking in anything I don't want do. <-Loaded statement. Thankfully, diazepam is still RM 0.50/5 mg tablet and alprazolam goes for RM 7.50/2.5 mg. Prices are from veritas and they are OTC prices, unregulated pharmacies ;). Read veritas's post on Erimin-5 here:

Erimin 5 [sixthseal.com]

S$ = Singapore dollars = slightly higher than A$ but for easier conversion:
S$1 = A$1 (1 Singapore dollar = 1 Australian dollar)
RM = Ringgit Malaysia = 1/2 for A$ so:
RM1 = A$0.50 (1 Malaysian dollar = 50 cents Australian)

In other news, the recent Google Dance obliterated my PR (down to 3 from 4) but I'm getting amazing SERPs. [Update: I am back to PR4 now.] How is that possible? Oh well, that "persistant sidebar" does make my pages look like spam so I'm not surprised at the drop in PR. Design for the users or for Google? I'll go with you, dear readers. ;)

[Update: Back to PR3 again...stabilize dammit. :p]

[Last Update: Oh wait, I'm PR4 again. Google flux, thou tease me so...]

Hi, I'm veritas and this is "Just say N2O".

Laughing gas. Nitrous oxide is usually found in cartridges sold as "whipped cream chargers". These beauties are about the size of your index finger and makes a nice clinking sound which tends to produce a Pavlov reaction. :) The first time I've seen nitrous oxide used recreationally was when I was 12 years old. I saw this friend of mine take a whipped cream bottle and depress the trigger in a particular way while inhaling the gas. He offered me the bottle, but I declined to try it, having read horror stories about inhalant use and brain damage.

Fast forward to a decade later, I'm much more knowledgeable about recreational drug use, and I've had quite a bit of experience under my belt. I am now aware that even though nitrous is classified as an "inhalant", the use is this particular substance is not linked to brain damage the same way other inhalants like Freon, gasoline and toluene are. I've had a lot of drugs, but this particular recreational substance seems to have been left on the side in pursuit of "harder" substances.

Do not inhale!

Inhaling from a whipped cream bottle does not seem to produce the level of effects which a cartridge filled balloon does, so I finally got hold of some N20 cartridges today. The recreational use of nitrous oxide requires the cream charger cartridges, a "cracker" and a balloon. The cracker is a contraption which pierces the cartridge and releases the (very cold) nitrous oxide on the other side, which would ideally be occupied by a balloon. This cracker is made by the resourceful CT:

The open threaded end is where the balloon fits over and the other side can be screwed apart to fit a cartridge in and then screwed in, piercing the seal and filling the balloon. Very nifty device. Each cartridge seems to be able to fill a balloon, and that volume is just comfortable for my lungs to inhale. I have read about people being able to inhale two cartridges, I am very impressed! I smoke cigarettes and marijuana, and I think I can hold a fair bit of stuff in my lungs but one cartridge is already enough to fill my lung to capacity.

How does nitrous feel like? Three words: Nitrous is fun! :) No, that smiley doesn't count as a word. CT has a very good technique he passed on, basically you hyperventilate for about 30 seconds, and during the last breath out, breath out completely, attach balloon to mouth, inhale and hold that motherfucker in for as long as you can. Well, like I said, I smoke so I am comfortable with inhaling stuff. The rush of the sweet (it really does taste sweet, I swear) gas into my lungs produced a head rush and I held it in for a full minute and suddenly (I was sitting on the floor), I dropped backwards and laid prone on the floor.

It's quite obvious whipping cream is the last thing on my mind

I had the presence of mind (I have been reading too much H.P. Lovecraft) to exhale the lungful of gas + carbon monoxide back into the balloon for "recycling". I remember NOFX - Idiots are Taking Over playing and the music sounds good, but distorted...and clichéd as it sounds, I started laughing my ass off. I inhaled the recycled gas and held it in for another minute and everything started getting distorted and that seemed even funnier. I was lying on the floor and I dropped my hand over my face and realized that my face is numb! I did it again and again and that was fun for a while, until the nitrous wore off.

How a cracker works

Yep, I loaded another cartridge, and then another one, and then another one. :) I also smoked some cannabis, and man, nitrous feel so much better while on weed! It is quite compulsive too, I kept on loading cartridges and refilling balloons (all the while enjoying the ice cold cracker feeling) until every single one was gone. I did "burn" (the opposite of burn anyway) my finger one time...I didn't realize I was holding on to the icy cracker for a long time and it left a mark on my index finger.

Nitrous oxide in the cartridge is a very cold gas and the cracker will become icy cold after a few iterations. I don't think you'll actually hurt yourself seriously this way though. This is a very fun substance indeed, I can't wait to try it while under the influence of other things...I would try it again on mushrooms soon, I hear it's a blast! ;)

Now, where did I put those Nurofen Plus tablets? I have a headache...

This is a post by veritas.

Sick of your deliveries getting held up in transit? Well, we can't help you in that aspect but we do have an alternative:

It's Sudafed to the rescue! I've never had any problems with purchasing pseudoephedrine, except this one time at Chemmart. I was looking at the Colds and Flu department when this store attendant came up to help. The girl was very friendly and helpful at first, getting me a generic pseudoephedrine pack, but I saw that it had 5 mg chlorpheniramine maleate (an antihistamine) in it too and asked for a pseudoephedrine hydrochloride only preparation and she immediately said they don't carry it and walked away. Yeah, that's real nice customer service. I don't even look half-dodgy, I always get asked for ID when I buy cigarettes or alcohol. I'm not saying that I purchase pseudoephedrine frequently though, no, of course not.

Anyway, I don't have a stuffy nose, I'm just taking it in a (vain) effort to stay awake. It's a very, very poor substitute for meth though, 320 mg + caffeine isn't doing much to shake off the benzodiazepine metabolites that INSIST (Why are you doing this???) on sedating me. I am still sleepy right now, despite guzzling Coke (the drink) like it's going er...out of style? I don't have any meth - supply chain issues, hopefully will resolve itself soon. Help, I seriously have trouble staying awake. Caffeine and pseudoephedrine is not triggering my dopamine receptors. Damn things are spoilt by meth. Now if only I have some red phosphorus, Lithium, anhydrous ammonia and some organic chemistry background...

I'm kidding of course.

NOFX - Quart In Session
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It's funny how
Nothing seems much fun anymore to me now that I don't have meth
Coz soberness - it might be what I need but
It certainly not how I want to be
Nothing seems much fun to anymore to me...

Slight modification of lyrics.

Photo Friday - Multiples [photofriday.com]

Multiples. The recent rains and cold weather produced a flush of mushrooms around the halls compound. This is Coprinus comatus (shaggy mane), an edible mushroom. I saw a large one growing on the grassy lawn on the way to the campus. The large shaggy mane is surrounded by multiples of itself, albeit smaller ones. This is in Melbourne, Australia.

The shooting data:

Focal Length: 8mm
Exposure Mode: Programmed Auto
Metering Mode: Multi-Pattern 1/72 sec - f/2.8
Exposure Compensation: 0 EV
Sensitivity: Auto
White Balance: Auto
AF Mode: AF-C
Saturation Compensation: 0

The post-production work was done in Photoshop 7.0 and involves:

Image Size: Size reduced from 2048x1536 to 500x375

Flunitrazapam (Hypnodorm, Rohypnol, "roofies") script.

I went to the doctor today and was prescribed flunitrazepam and clobazam for my anxiety, panic attacks and insomnia. I'm supposed to take the Frisium (clobazam) in mid-morning (10 mg) and Hypnodorm (flunitrazepam) at night (1 mg). Both the prescriptions belong to the benzodiazepine family and they are pretty rare. The campus pharmacy doesn't stock them so I had to head down to Clayton to get them from a bigger pharmacy. Personal and other identifying details have mosaic applied for privacy. Yes, I really do have severe anxiety.

Clobazam (Frisium) script.

Anyway, here's a bit of information (compiled from various sources) about both the medications:

Flunitrazepam

Hypnodorm (Flunitrazepam) bottle containing 30 tablets @ 1 mg each.

This is banned in the United States due to the hullabaloo about it being a "date rape" drug. It is available in Australia for severe insomnia "when all other options are exhausted". It is Schedule 8 over here (belongs to the same schedule as dexamphetamine) while most other benzos are Schedule 4. Schedule 4 is "Prescription only drugs" while Schedule 8 is "Drugs of Dependence/Addiction". Schedule 8 prescriptions are not easy to get due to the restricted nature, while Schedule 4 is easier.

The scheduling into Schedule 8 is probably due to it's notoriety as a "date rape" drug, since a benzo is a benzo is a benzo and most benzodiazepines are Schedule 4. However, this doesn't mean that all benzodiazepines "feel" the same, because they don't, since every one has a different affinity to different GABA binding sites. Benzodiazepines have been compared to red wine in this sense, in that you can "appreciate" the subtle differences between the different ones. Flunitrazepam is marketed under Hypnodorm (generic) but it is more well known under the name Rohypnol (F. Hoffman-La Roche). This is called "roofies" on the street and due to the unfortunate media hype (search for "date rape drug" and Flunitrazepam (Rohypnol) comes up, followed by GHB - do not allow me to rant about this topic) it's not available in the US and it's hard to get in most other countries as well.

The tablets are green and oval, with FM | 1 on the front and the alpha symbol on the back.

Flunitrazepam has a long half-life (18-26 hours) and it also has an active metabolite (like Valium) that lasts 36-200 hours. Peak plasma concentrations occur after 45 minutes, so this is one of the fast acting benzodiazepines (like Xanax). 1 mg of Flunitrazepam is equal to 10 mg of Diazepam (Valium) or 0.5 mg of Clonazepam (Klonopin) and Alprazolam (Xanax). It is marketed as a hypnotic (for insomnia). Hypnodorm comes in a bottle of 30 tablets of 1 mg each. It's not available in other doses or sizes in Australia. 30 x 1 mg Flunitrazepam tablets costs A$26.05 (RM 50) under my health coverage, which does not cover prescription drugs, so I pay private (full price).

Clobazam

Clobazam (Frisium) pack containing 50 tablets @ 10 mg each.

This is another benzodiazepine that is not available in the United States. It's made by Hoechst and marketed under the name Frisium. This is indicated for acute anxiety in Australia and it's Schedule 4 like most other benzos. An interesting tidbit about Clobazam is that it's the first anxiolytic (anti-anxiety) drug which belongs to the class of 1,5-benzodiazepine as opposed to the 1,4-benzodiazepine structure. This makes it something of "historic value" to people who are interested.

This is a side view of the Frisium pack.

The different structure also makes it feel different from other benzodiazepines, qualitative user comments mentions that the 1,5 structure makes it affect the motor functions much less than normal 1,4 benzodiazepines ie you don't feel as physically impaired (stumbling around etc). The half-life of Frisium is 12-60 hours and it's marketed as an anxiolytic and an anticonvulsant. Peak plasma concentrations occur between 1-4 hours, so this makes it a slower acting benzodiazepine (like Klonopin).

Frisium blister pack - front.

Frisium only comes in packs of 50 tablets containing 10 mg of Clobazam each. The pack has 5 individual blister packs with 10 tablets each. 20 mg of Clobazam is equivalent to 10 mg of Diazepam (Valium) and 0.5 mg of Alprazolam (Xanax) and Clonazepam (Klonopin). The pack I have is the brand name one (Frisium) so it costs much more than generics would. I paid A$36.15 (RM 70) for the pack of 50 x 10 mg tablets. This is the private (full) price.

Frisium blister pack - back.

The comments to this post has been disabled. Please refrain from commenting about this issue in the other comments box because I prefer not to discuss this subject on the blog. You can email me if you have any pressing questions related to the post, I will answer every one. Thanks for understanding.

The tablets are white and round, with B | GL on the front and the Hoechst logo on the back.

I had an interview worth 30% of the course marks, which I just had to miss...by 35 minutes. That's late, considering we're allocated 30 minutes each for the interview. I don't understand why I had to wait 45 minutes for the 630 Huntingdale bus on a weekday. Lunch hour is no excuse, the connection to the train didn't go well and I only turned up for my 12:30 pm interview at 1:05 pm. The tutor was kind enough to reschedule it to next Monday, so that's one good thing at least. Anyway, I wanted to write more but I'm just coming down like a ton of bricks right now, so here's a picture I took today:

This scene entertained me for 15 minutes...I was waiting at the Caulfield train station and the Pakenham/Cranbourne/Frankston line is also used by the V/Line trains to Sale. Sale is a town which is quite far away from Melbourne and there seems to be some kind of dog competition going on because I saw three people with dogs in those portable kennels. I liked the interaction between the black one and the brown one. The black dog (being physically larger) feels he is the dominant one and wants to make it known by making a loud "woof" when he saw the brown dog. I like the brown one, it looks worried. :)

I am pleased to announce that I've been invited to join the core group of Project Petaling Street [petalingstreet.org]. I'm delighted by the invitation, to say the least. :) The other members are established bloggers with good content, and I'm not sure I really fit in, but it's an honor to join the group. The core members of the group are:

Aizuddin Danian (http://www.aizuddindanian.com/)
Dinesh Nair (http://www.alphaque.com/)
Ditesh Kumar (http://gathani.org/)
Jeff Ooi (http://www.jeffooi.com/)
Mohan Raj (http://codeworks.blogspot.com/)
NSalleh (http://nsalleh.canggih.net/photoblog/)
Najah Nasseri (http://www.najahnasseri.org/)
Poh Huai Bin (http://www.sixthseal.com/)
TechnoLAHgy (http://www.yat.ch/lah/)
TV Smith (http://www.mycen.com.my/duasen/)

I'm excited by this project and what it's going to do. It was kept under wraps until today, so click on the link and see what it's all about.

Anyway, I just got back from campus, this is the first part of a three post series about my day that unfortunately gets worse. I will write the rest after I take care of some unfinished business.

Coming up:

The bad
I missed my interview today...by 35 minutes! It's worth 30% What happens now?

The ugly
Flunitrazepam (Rohypnol, Hypnodorm, "date rape drug"), Clobazam (Frisium). Wtf? This isn't a veritas post? (No) What's going on here?

Stay tuned...

ELC1000 @ Blue Diamond Room

Notice the empty room? I was one of the last ones out. The examiner looked at me with a puzzled smile when I took this photo. I told her this is my last semester and she went "Ah...I see". The exam was great, but I didn't have enough time to write, I left one question half-answered. It was an easy paper though, I should be able to do well and in this site's tradition:

Expected Grade: Distinction

Do you notice that exam halls in winter (or autumn rather) tend to be filled with sneezes? The weather factor together with the closed windows seems to exacerbate this even further. I'm just sitting there, thinking hard when *sneeze*!

That's cool man, so you're having a cold. I feel sorry for you. *sneeze* Okay, the cold is infectious. *sneeze* *sneeze* Very infectious. *sneeze* (beside me) *sneeze* (the girl in front) *sneeze* *sneeze* (somewhere behind) *sneeze*

....................

It's very hard to concentrate when the whole room's a-sneezing.

I'll be writing furiously, when I suddenly think of another important point and put that in my memory cache (so I can write it down when I'm done with this sentence), when out of nowhere - *SNEEZE*! Nope, lost it. Curses.

Poor AlCee [tripod.com] had the same problem today but it was with whispering instead of sneezing. I reckon that's even worse as whispering has a certain tone to it that just totally messes up your concentration. I just thought of something. ELC rhymes with AlCee.

The Blue Diamond Room @ Caulfield Racecourse. This is the last time I sat for an exam in this room. My apologies for the out of focus photo. I had set the custom mode to optimize for close-ups and accidentally used that instead of auto.

I just got back from my exams, I'll just grab some dinner before I post again.

Oliver asks for more

The room in which the boys were fed, was a large stone hall, with a copper at one end: out of which the master, dressed in an apron for the purpose, and assisted by one or two women, ladled the meth at mealtimes. Of this festive composition each boy had one line, and no more -- except on occasions of great public rejoicing, when he had two points and a quarter of clonazepam besides. The bowls never wanted washing. The boys polished them with their straws till they shone again; and when they had performed this operation, (which never took very long, the straws being nearly as large as the lines,) they would sit staring at the stash, with such eager eyes, as if they could have devoured the very bricks of which it was composed; employing themselves, meanwhile, in sucking their straws most assiduously, with the view of catching up any stray specks of powder that might have been cast thereon. Boys have generally excellent appetites. Oliver Twist and his companions suffered the tortures of slow sedation for three months; at last they got so voracious and wild with sleepiness, that one boy: who was tall for his age, and hadn't been used to that sort of thing, (for his father had kept a small meth cook's shop): hinted darkly to his companions, that unless he had another gram of methamphetamine per diem, he was afraid he might some night happen to eat the boy who slept next him, who happened to be a weakly youth of tender age. He had a wild, hungry, eye; and they implicitly believed him. A council was held; lots were cast who should walk up to the master after supper that evening, and ask for more; and it fell to Oliver Twist.

The evening arrived; the boys took their places. The master, in his cook's uniform, stationed himself at the copper; his pauper assistants ranged themselves behind him; the meth was served out; and a long grace was said over the short commons. The meth disappeared; the boys whispered each other, and winked at Oliver; while his next neighbors nudged him. Child as he was, he was desperate with sleepiness, and reckless with fatigue. He rose from the table; and advancing to the master, basin and straw in hand, said: somewhat alarmed at his own temerity:

"Please, sir, I want some more meth."

The master was a fat, healthy man; but he turned very pale. He gazed in stupefied astonishment on the small rebel for some seconds; and then clung for support to the copper. The assistants were paralyzed with wonder; the boys with fear.

"What!" said the master at length, in a faint voice.

"Please, sir," replied Oliver, "I want some more meth."

The master aimed a blow at Oliver's head with the ladle; pinioned him in his arms; and shrieked aloud for the beadle.

- butchered from Charles Dickens original work (copyright expired)

Oliver took clonazepam to sleep last night.
Oliver had an exam today.
Oliver had a line of meth before taking the exam.
Oliver still felt sleepy during the exam. (curses clonazepam)
Oliver did not perform at maximum capacity.
...but Oliver did well anyway.
:)

Crystal methamphetamine!

Naturally, this is a veritas post.

Just look at those nice shards of methamphetamine! I aquired some of this quality meth today, er...I mean last year. ;) It has all been consumed so it doesn't matter when I got it, because it's not in my possession now. Now that the disclaimer is done with, let me proceed with the test results. I haven't seen nice shards of crystal meth in a long time, so this is a real treat indeed. =D

Marquis:

A single shard *pounds heart with fist* was placed on a surface and a drop of Marquis reagent was added. The reaction was a fast one, bubbling and fizzing to an orange color. Orange indicates an amphetamine type substance.

Simons:

Another shard *more pounding* was tested with two drops of Simons reagent and two drops of buffer solution. The color change was very fast to dark blue, it saturated the solution. Blue indicates a secondary amine, so together with the Marquis result, it is safe to assume that the shards of clear crystal is not sugar (or another inert substance) but methamphetamine. :)

If you didn't get the heart pounding reference, it's a feature of slapstick comedies when something shocking (usually financially related i.e. a wasteful act) is done at the disapproval of the person involved. This is presumably an attempt to get the heart beating again after the shocking deed resulted in a cardiac arrest. I have taken the shards to the "taste test" (or rather insufflating test) and the conclusion is that this is Damn Good Methamphetamine or D.G.M. for short.

I am prepared for the final exams...are you? ;)

Ethical question:

Do you think it is "unfair" (cheating) to have a line of meth (or another stimulant) before taking an exam? Please comment. Your input is appreciated.

Personally, I don't think so, because even though it affords extra concentration, increased memory retrieval and (qualitatively) improves thought processes, it's no different from caffeine - which a lot of people take before exams. What makes caffeine acceptable, but not methamphetamine? The legal status? The availability? Different people have different mental abilities too...are the smarter ones "cheating"? Are exams really a fair and equal environment to evaluate understanding of course material? Does being born with a gift (above average intellectual ability) make things "okay" but not taking something to increase performance? Is the perceived advantage given by certain substances (in a non-competitive sporting event) wrong? How does this fit in with drinking coffee, eating a meal and the other things people do to improve performance in exams?

This is a veritas post.

Substances consumed:
Methamphetamine (meth)
Dexamphetamine (Dexedrine)
Clonazepam (Klonopin)
Diazepam (Valium)
Cannabis (weed)
Ketamine (K)
P.subs (magic mushrooms)
Salvia Divinorum (Diviner's Sage)
LSD (acid)
95% alcohol + cannabis (Green Dragon)

Soundtrack:
Infected Mushroom - None Of This Is Real [sixthseal.com]
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Methamphetamine/Dexamphetamine

(Day 1 - Day 6)

This is the mysterious container...look down for more.

My love for this substance is not unknown, so there's nothing much to say here. I planned to go on a 3 day run, but some things came up and I had to extend it. It wasn't pretty towards the end. Eating only dextroamphetamine sulfate tablets and water for days is making your stomach endure things it's not built for. I had to abort the run by the fifth day, because I thought I was going to kick the bucket (again). Angina, hypertension, couldn't breath, very elevated body temperature, sudden jabbing pains all over (someone diagnose this please), blah blah you know the drill. The strangest thing was that I had swollen and red hands and feet after drinking only a tiny bit of water. I think most of the problems would not have occurred if I forced myself to have (reasonable) water intake every few hours and eaten something. It's a useful drug for studies and work...in moderation. My attempt to terminate the run did not succeed on the fifth day (with benzodiazepines), but I managed to sleep on the sixth day. Meth was insufflated and dexies were taken orally. There was an attempt to insufflate meth to try and keep awake for the LSD visuals, but no amount could keep me awake after the alcohol. :)

Peppermint Peckers!

The tin is just nice for storing meth, crushing dexamphetamine tablets and shards of meth. Stimulants only please!

It looks sad...

Clonazepam

(Day 5, Day 6)

I had 5 mg on the fifth day but it did not bring me to the place called sleep. I stacked it with 20 mg diazepam after it that became obvious, but it still didn't push the issue into the agenda. I consumed only 2 mg on the sixth day with 10 mg diazepam and alcohol, and was asleep within hours. This benzodiazepine seems to have lost quite a bit of its hypnotic effects for me. Sometimes it makes me feel drunk and anxiety-free and happy like Xanax (alprazolam) does, and thus I stay up with a contented grin, but not sleep.

Diazepam

(Day 5, Day 6)

This particular benzodiazepine makes me extra sleepy. I only have a limited stash (now I have none :p) so I tend to squirrel it away for the moments when I really need the hypnotic effects.

Cannabis

(Day 5, Day 6)

I smoked quite a few bowls of weed before the appetite suppressant effects of meth/dex was overridden. I ate a normal sized meal on the fifth day (with lots of candy) and another one on the sixth day. I use the word bowl and cone interchangeably and by that, I mean the conepiece.

Ketamine

(Day 5)

I attempted to potentiate the benzodiazepines on the fifth day with ketamine to induce sleep. Approximately 100 mg was insufflated, it didn't k-hole me, and only minimal ketamine effects were felt. I don't know if it's because of quality issues or other factors.

Ready when you are

Enter Marquis - Bubbling (?) but no color change

Enter Simons - No color change

Ketamine will not react with Marquis or Simons.

Caution: Please note that benzodiazepines in combination with ketamine may suppress breathing.

Psilocybe subaeruginosa

(Day 5)

Since I couldn't sleep anyway, I thought "fuck it" and consumed some magic mushrooms. :) Benzodiazepine's disinhibiting effects might have contributed to the decision to take several different substances on the sixth day. I don't know the amount of mushrooms that was taken, but it was fairly fresh. It produced some minor visuals and lots of laughter. I actually went to uni while under the influence. :) No paranoia was noted, probably due to the clonazepam. I went with CT on a mushroom hunting trip last week and we shared the haul. The pictures from that trip is here:

Salvia Divinorum

(Day 5, Day 6)

This is 5X salvia extract, courtesy of CT aka My Generous Friend. ;) I smoked some on the fifth day with a bong and a (dodgy) lighter. It's supposed to be smoked with a butane lighter, the sort that produces a flame that burns hot and fast for maximum effects. I did not notice anything except a mild "ketamine feeling" the first time. I smoked it again during the mushroom trip and it produced some nice visual distortions. The best one is the way the area where two walls come together began to flow downwards like a waterfall. What is with me and waterfalls on mushrooms anyway? I would like to try it again with a butane lighter and no other substances to get a feel for this herb.

Caution: Salvia Divinorum is illegal in Australia.

LSD

(Day 6)

I also dropped a tab of acid on the morning of the sixth day. I don't know what lead to this decision...I was just sitting there, doing some revision and unable to sleep when I thought:

"You know...a tab of acid would be great right now. I wonder if it would give me greater insight into this revision I'm doing."

Duh. :) It didn't, but it sure was fun. I was tired as fuck though, and hurting all over, and I was expecting a bad trip, but it was a good one. This is the Buddha tabs that I had written about previously. That one and the amanita muscaria report made "Erowid's Recommended Report". =D It did hurt the site's bandwidth though, due to the direct linked images. But hey, it got Erowid's Recommended Report! :)

Anyway, I think this is a different batch from the previous one. It looked smaller than the previous tabs and the cardboard was not as easily dissolvable as the previous one. It seemed (qualitatively) weaker too. However, there was an incident regarding this which might have caused that. I put them into my other stash drawer WHICH IS RIGHT BESIDE THE HEATER! LSD is sensitive to heat, and I only realized after noticing that the drawer is kinda warm after an hour or so, and moved it to another place. It still is psychoactive, but sadly, the strength of the LSD seems to have been reduced.

It's not dissolving...

There wasn't any paranoia on this either, probably due to the clonazepam. The clonazepam was also responsible for making me search 30 minutes for the acid tabs after I dropped it, only to find it was right beside me all along. The best visual from this trip was right when I was about to sleep...I found the pillow occupied by large and transparent organisms. It's the ones that we learnt in high school Science...the ones that are one class above single cell organisms. They weren't moving, but once in a while they would wave their feelers around a bit. It made me a bit wary about sleeping on the pillow. :)

95% alcohol + cannabis

(Day 6)

The (190) proof is in the pudding

I made a batch of this last year and found it to be weak, so I made another batch this year and put more cannabis into it. 95% alcohol (sold as Everclear in the US) is available in a few bottle shops here. I don't know the legal status of spirits with this strength, but I don't think it's illegal. It is hard to find though, I haven't seen it displayed anywhere, I had to ask for it by name and it was produced from the storeroom.

Basically, you put (finely shredded) cannabis into the bottle and let it sit around for a few weeks. I recommend filtering the mixture after that because I got a mouthful of soggy (really soggy) weed and nearly retched. I can't describe the texture, but I didn't like it. :) Alcohol was the magic ingredient, it put me right to sleep when combined with benzos. Benzodiazepines alone have consistently failed to produce the appropriate hypnotic effects for me now. Alcohol is the missing link,

"And on the seventh day God ended his work which he had made; and he rested on the seventh day from all his work which he had made."

Genesis 2:2

The draft of this document is here:
Mini Drug Binge v.beta [sixthseal.com]

My apologies, this isn't well written at all, but I do have exams coming up too, you know. Contrary to popular belief, taking drugs is not my day job! :)

This is a post by veritas.

...of old people, but that doesn't mean they're any less dangerous. :) There were 10 of them, and we all know that groups of more than 3 people congregating in public means it's a gang. Anyway, after a couple of Valiums (diazepam) and quite a few cones of cannabis, I headed down to McDonald's with my friends with the intent of eating at least 3 full sized burgers, large fries, large Coke, McFlurry and a dessert. I was rather sedated though, and had quite a bit of trouble communicating my order...I keep forgetting what she said. Heh! Well, I started photographing the burgers, and this old man from the next table said:

"Whatcha doing mate?"

in a tone I (mistakenly or not) construed as hostile. Okay, it's not nice to be disrespectful to the elderly but I wasn't sure that the tone was friendly or hostile under the haze of cannabis and benzodiazepines, and after appropriate analysis of his facial expression (though like I said, it's hard to tell) I decided it was not a friendly greeting, so I replied in a similar fashion:

"Taking a photo of this. *motions with burger* What's it to you?"

Anyway, he looked away and that was that...until the old woman opposite him said something that could not be interpreted as anything but hostile, to which I replied "What's your fucking problem?", which was well within my rights, because all I wanted was to dig into the meal while the munchies caused by weed consumption was still there and these exchanges are making my food cold. I don't remember what she said though, it was something derogatory about my photographic inclinations but I don't exactly remember the details due to the diazepam. Benzodiazepines make me forget most details while under the influence. I even forgot the wonderful visuals I got last night from the acid until I happened to look at the piece of paper I wrote it on. It was so nice and realistic that I urged myself to write it down even though I was so sleepy (benzos) that I could barely drag myself to bed before passing out. That God for that, I would have totally forgotten about the nice visual if it wasn't for that "offline trip journal" (read: back of an envelope). Forgive me, I digress. Anyway, that didn't get a reply, but later on, I dropped the spoon for my Paradise Peach and the woman said that I might as well take a photo of that as well. I told her she could have the fucking spoon if she wanted it that much. Yes, that was rude of me, but Jesus, can't someone indulge his weed munchies without random comments from strangers? I did not use flash (flash is evil in close-up photography - it obliterates the details), so it's not like I disturbed them. If anything, I should be pissed at them for *cough* diminishing my dining experience. Being elderly is not an excuse to freely make comments without retribution. In retrospect, I was being appropriately polite (admittedly benzo assisted) since my reaction would be different if the list of ingested substances include (meth)amphetamine. Anyway, there weren't any more exchanges after that, I went to get a new spoon and finished everything (except the Filet-O-Fish - too full) in peace. :)

The fruits of my labor:

I ate everything except the Filet-O-Fish. Paradise Peach shown separately below.

Big Mac

Filet-O-Fish

McOz - Available only in Australia. It has beetroot, so watch out if you don't like that stuff.

Customized McFlurry. It's not officially on the menu, but you can ask the staff to put anything you want inside. I usually go for an Oreo McFlurry and ask for that strawberry sauce they usually put on top of sundaes mixed into the blend. That tastes good.

Peach Paradise var. advertisement

Peach Paradise var. real

Yes, the real product never looks as good as the picture. :)

Nice cake base though.

Oh, and I'll re-write the mini binge and put up those photos tomorrow, I've got something important to do later. Thanks for your patience! :)

<p>This is a post by <a href="mailto:veritas@sixthseal.com">veritas</a>.</p>

<p>I wote this while still very under the influence and try as I want
to, I cannot simply provide resoanably understandable phrases while in
this mindstate. Plus, I took a heavy dose of benzodiazepines and theire
siren calls are irresistible, try as hard as I could. That was
originally the plan - I hae tweaked for a few days so today ios the
time to stop...except I ended up having classic ideas like taking LSD
(acid) at 5am the morning. Hehe! If I knoew I wasn't gonnabe this
tired, I'll have been out. So here's the very dubious draft, read at
your own risk, sinlight just looks so beautiful on a low 1 blotter dose
of acid. I amazed that that all the insufflated meth couldn't keep me
from sleeping. The acid too, visuals look great in the daytime , it's a
small dose, but its great. I'll tell you more tomorrow, Too sleepy not
to saything except food. And fractals. Anyway, I'm stopping here and
I'll post a photo up so it isn't all tes.t I can't think coherently
now, but check back tomorrow and I'll have posted a nether post with
all the pirctures and when I'm sober enough to write. Bye nite...and you
can have a read at the really rough draft starting here:</p>

<p><img alt="msysleep.jpg" src="http://www.sixthseal.com/archive/June2003/msysleep.jpg" border="0" height="263" width="350"><br>
Intrigues by this picture? Have you been subject to sleepless nights
because you wonder what that picture is. Well , check ack tomorrow and
all will be clear! I did take a lot of pics of substances b ut nah
can't postm them today toooosleepy. I had something to say but I forgot
it again like usual. Fuck.</p>

<h3>Idiot warning: Please refrain from reading because there's an idiot writubg (though not intentionally.</h3>
<h2>Final warning: Drug retard's journal. Not recommended for reasing</h2>
Oh man, even typing that out made me have to think for a long to to get
that thought out. I should probably put a caution here: This post will
endoubtadly lead in an appropriate degress of respect, but in my
defence, some stuff have been sitting in the drawer for AGES and I
never had an urge to touch them (except for dex/meth). I don't know why
I'm at the first paragraph again, will go down and find the one I
posted in last and I'm going to put an idiot waitning on top.
<p><b>Substances: </b><br>
Day 1 - Day 6<br>
Methamphetamine <br>
Dextroamphetamine (Dexamphetamine, Dexedrine)<br>
Day 3 or 4 or 5  <br>
Ketamine</p>

<p>Ketamine = early this morning (or was it last night?) time just loses it's meaning when you stay up a while.<br>
Bendodiazepines (clonazepam, diazepam)<br>
Salvia Divinorum (Diviner's Sage)<br>
Cannabis (marijuana)<br>
95% alcohol...I think that's what made me so drowsy wit the benzo doses I just look. I'm having a bizzzare feeling now./<br>
Mushrooms! =D</p>

<p><b>Caution: </b> This post might be offensive to three different people<br>1.
Who have been brainwashed by government propaganda into thinking "Drugs
are bad mmmkay?" The scond group that might be displeased is the harm
reduction organizations, who's work and time towards the cause have
always been appreciated! To them I say, my apologies for contributing
to the image of irresponsible use. To the first group I say, get your
fucking ass out of your head because eat food - shit comes out - eat
shit ad nauseum is not a healthy way to life. I'll also like to mention
that I'm not the most responsible drug user out there, so please do not
take my comments as representative of a larger group. If you do, I
suggest that a refresher course in university might do you a world of
good to keep things in perspective.<br>
<b>Background:</b> Taking methamphetamine/dextroamphetamine for 6 days
straight. Today is the sixth day. I wanted to comedown yesterday but
thatfunny ketamine kept me awake and so here I an,I would love tell you
about the..tius is like a really bad movie but I seriously forgot again.<br>
<b>Substances: </b></p>

<p>It's the end of the semester some more!!!!! I felt so tired after my
5 day run without food and sleep (got some on the sixth night, yum
drowisnes alernt, oh and I'm going to pass out right now I'm so sleepy!</p>

<p><b>Anyway substances taken:</b> methamphetamine (meth) <b>I'LL STOP
HERE, SORRY ABOUT THAT, MY SEDATION IS BORDERING ON COMA AND . no,
that's giving up, I will resist the URGE to sleep and I promise I'll
get this done pictures and all (although shoddiness is garunteed) </b>now iE TONIET., dextroamphetamine (Dexidrine instant release), diazepam (Valium),</p>

<p><br>
Note: er...somehow this post didn't survive the server move, but the final post did</p>

This is a post by veritas.

Photo Friday - Packaging [photofriday.com]

Packaging. Hello, I'm doing the Photo Friday this week. :) I'll try to use the same format just for consistency's sake. Pictured above is a point of powdered ketamine hydrochloride packaged in foil. It was taken with just the monitor's ambient glare, and that tinted everything blue. I found the shade of blue very pleasant. The use of the word point as a measurement unit seems to be isolated to Australia. 1 point = 100 mg/0.1 gram.

Infected Mushroom - None Of This Is Real [sixthseal.com]
(right click, save target as)
[6:25 minutes 128 KBPS STEREO 44.1KHZ 5.87 MB .mp3]

[Edit: MP3 deleted]

This isn't real...none of this is real...

The shooting data:

Focal Length: 8 mm
Exposure Mode: Programmed Auto
Metering Mode: 1/3.7sec - f/2.8
Sensitivity: Auto
White Balance: FV-1 (Optimized for florescent light, which was probably why it came out so blue)

The post-production work was done in Photoshop 7.0 and involves:

Image Size: Size reduced to 500x375.

[Edit: Uploaded MP3]

Tomorrow is the last day of the semester. It would be my final semester here too, if I don't fail anything. *crosses fingers* Anyway, just some updates since I haven't been posting much - the final exam of GCS2714 Alcohol and Drug Use went okay, some bits were easy, some were hard. The last few days (weeks?) have been crazy, my organs took quite a pummeling...I know my kidneys are not happy with the amount of processing they had to do. Oh, I had a really interesting sleep deprivation hallucination today too. I was coding, when those squiggly RGB protoplasm started to fill my vision (like I was looking through swirling red green blue "organic eyeshades"). I blinked, and in that split second (it felt like minutes), I was transported to a bizarre world with lots of horrible screaming and an ultra bright strobe light that made everything blinding white and flickering. The strange thing is, it couldn't have been more than a second, but it felt like minutes! It gave me a start, that's for sure. :) Classic! It's worthy of a "hallucination" label instead of visual distortion because of the auditory hallucinations and sensory (spatial) confusion. Anyway, I'm too tired now, but here's some pictures of food I got over the last few days but didn't get around to eating yet...will eat them all tonight, and a nice big meal as well (all the better for a lacerating GI tract to absorb of course). It would be good to have an alternative energy source, ketone bodies just doesn't measure up. ;) I will post again tomorrow if all that doesn't give me reactive hypoglycemia like the doctor said it would.

Cadbury's Picnic Rocky Road, Snickers Hazelnut, Snickers Cruncher and Twix (King Size). Twix rocks. Stoner's choice. ;) "Tune out big time!"

It comes in a white chocolate version too.

I only saw this today...third in the series of Smith's Great Australian Tastes. This one is Bega's Strong & Bitey Aged Vintage cheese. It would go well with my meal later. :) The first two are here: Heinz Big Red Tomato Sauce & Meat Pie and Ham and Keen's Mustard [sixthseal.com].

No, there isn't.

Public service announcement: Grain alcohol/pure spirit (95% alcohol or 190 proof) + lacerating stomach = fiery, terrible retribution from the pits of hell.

This is a post by veritas.

Exhibit #1:

I just started my 3500 word due in 9 hours now

but its helluva easy...took an easy sub this semester coz i already have enough units. hah! anyway i know you're working nite shift lar, i read all the entries in your blog already. yeah, i like breakfast, it's good, the best, dinner and lunch is terrible though. a group of us used (snip) every thursday (coz most ppl have fridays free, the smart one who allocates timetables well do anwyay :p) till morning and then go for breakfat together, that was crazy and funny, usually 12 of us will (cut) eat and then hit the bed after that. those were the days...but the scene died down though, a lot of the (blah blah), that was last year but it was fun. don't anymore though, coz (what's that again?). i like vietnamese pho too, i'm with the popular majority who says mekong has the best. oh ya what hours do you work? i know its nite shift, i mean from when to when? interested to know, sorry if it's too personal. and while we're on the topic of personal stuff, is that your full name? (privacy)? I've seen those around, not very common though, usually it's three words, one family and two (revealing personal details, big chunk deleted) they must be damn disappointed that name didn't translate into actual results. ;) i'm not known for having a good acedemic track record, although i scrape thru. :p there i go talking about myself again, apologies, blaming it on the meth. =D would like to know your full name if that's okay.

anyway, i have to get back to my assignment, heh i wrote a bit already, do i sound like a spammer or what! too many exclaimation marks and excessive use of hyperbole. man, i'm having so much fun writing this...i usually write write write and then go hit amazon.com to pull a couple of books as my references. :) i find it much easier to write whatever i want and insert random references into the nonsense i write (no references = treated as plagarism) and then put up a fake bibliography with the books from amazon.com. it has always worked and its so much faster thatn doing research! i've already read about all this stuff beforehand anyway, so i guess that is research, since i didn't forget it, it's right and blah blah. i am so having fun now, had heaps of meth to override the damn benzo fog. stand well back people!!!! here's comes meth!

meth: i eat mental fogginess for breakfast!!!

clonazepam: oh, we're so fucked...

(sounds of flesh being ripped apart and disturbing slurping noises)

meth: i live here now! what's that you're working on dude? feh, easy, let me help, we'll be done in no time! no time i say! you hear me???? no time!!!

me: *swoons* you never have let me down. kiss me!

meth: technically i am in your bloodstream, so i'm running through your lips as well

me: oh you taste so good

meth: why thank you

me: bitter actually, but i've come to associate that with the rush

meth: yes, bitter is good eh?

me: very good! clonazepam, you in there?

(silence)

meth: i er...took the liberty of taking care of those assignment killers

me: i see, yeah you've told me before

meth: yes i did

me: ok

meth: yeah

me: don't use conversation fillers

meth: ok

me: that's another one. just shut up and help me with this.

meth: will do! (silently thinking: you just wait...i'll show you for talking to me like this...i'll oxidise this, and this and this. haha! there goes your dopamine receptors)

me: hey wats that you're mumbling about?

meth: er...nothing! (thinking: can he really hear me?)

me: yes, duh!

meth: sorry

me: i know about the dopamine thing, prepared to take that one anyway

meth: okay

me: fillers

meth: sorry

me: its okay, just work harder

meth: will do!

me: enough jibba jabba

meth: cunt

me: i heard that

meth: i know

me: you want me to take a megadose of benzos?

meth: you wouldn't do that, the assignment is due tomorrow

me: hmph...but after that...

meth: i'm just shaking in my boots

me: you won't be so cocky when that 6 mg clonazepam gang comes after you

meth: pffft, i'll send them back in a hellbasket (thinking: oh boy)

me: i heard that too. such is the life of meth eh?

meth: yeah, we don't live very long...thanks for the urinary alkalinizers dude, that's like a drink from the fountain of youth

me: no problem, we take care of each other round here

meth: appreciate that. i got you back too

me: like hell you do

meth: apart from the dopamine thing that is, erm...thats nothing, you'll be fine

me: no i won't, but that's cool, just don't give me a stroke, a heart attack, a brain aneurysm, or anything like that and everything is sweet

meth: no promises, but i'll try my very best. you have my word.

me: thats wat you said last time too

meth: hey, give a dog a bad name and hang it and all that...

me: okay, enough of this, lets get to work

Here's what i'm up to so far if you're interested (which you're probably not):

(my assignment bits was here)

that's it! :) Take care (name) and have an absolutely wonderful day! <- another example of my excessive hyperbole use

veritas

That's an email I wrote during the end of last month, while tweaked...verbose and full of irrelevant details. Yeah, I've resorted to posting old emails because I don't have time to write, although there's heaps of things I want to update you all about. Indiscriminate and heavy editing has been applied to the original email to remove identifying portions. The recipient is someone on the blogs link, play "Guess the Blogger" if you want. It's not really that hard, but please don't give me away. :)

Clue: None. There's too many in the email as it is.

I've finally put up the photos section [sixthseal.com]. It's a bit sparse at the moment, but everything in there is new. Well, not new as in recent...it's just the first time it has appeared on the site. :) The pictures are a mix of (personal) digital photos and scans of film photos. The quality of the scans are somewhat dismal - I've either messed up the scanner's settings (it looks like perpetual twilight) or I'm having visual disturbances from sleep deprivation. The photos are currently categorized in reverse chronological order under "Monash College 2000", "Girlfriend, Sibu 2001", "CPL Pacific 2001", "Photos 2002" and just so there's something representing this year, "Recent". Two of the recent photos are really recent too - one taken yesterday (curry) and the other taken within the week (campus).

I'll post more photos in a couple of days. I have assignments due later and an exam tomorrow. Wish me luck!

It gives you lung cancer. I hate running out of cigarettes while tweaking, that is like totally uncool, man...seriously though, I've been without smokes for two days and it's killing me. Not literally of course, it's doing my lungs a whole lotta good in fact. Anyway, I'm too lazy to go out in the cold weather and go "I'll have a pack of Marlboro reds 25's please". Needless to say, I'm living quite far from civilization. The nicotine monster running through my veins is (unwillingly) satiated by my large stock of nicotine gum...but nothing beats inhaling a nice lungful of smoke! I've caught myself putting on my sweater and ready to walk out the door, but nah, I'm not going to take a long walk just to buffer the war chest of Philip Morris Limited. I have been resorting to some stuff that probably every smoker out there has done though. I've subjected half-smoked cigarette butts in my ashtray to a second combustion process. Don't look at me like that...in times of need, we make do, don't we? I've also upturned by room to find old boxes of cigarettes to extract the wealth that is loose tobacco leaves. It's surprising how much brown toasted tobacco one can yield from cigarette boxes, especially if you pack them before opening. I've managed to harvest a nice pile, which I smoked with my bong. I wouldn't say it tasted good, especially the stale bits, but you gotta do what you gotta do. ;) I also bummed one off CT today. That's the one that weakened me...I haven't had RYO's for years!

It was nicely rolled and the tobacco was that rum and wine (I think) mix that I favored years ago too, and damn was it good!!! I didn't let the atmosphere sneak a single wift off that one, dragged on it constantly till I was holding it like a joint and ended up getting a (okay, three!) lungful of burning filter. I have tasted human blood...get out of the way everyone! I decided I needed more and I remember seeing the guy who lives downstairs smoking, so I went knocking at his door. :)

Me: Hello, I live upstairs and this would sound strange, but I ran out off cigarettes and I was wondering if I can buy some off you.
Guy: Oh, sure! No problems, how many do you want?
Me: Can I get 5 off you? I'll pay you for the trouble.
Guy: Don't worry about it. It's fine.
(Guy goes and gets his pack and gave me five.)
Me: Thanks! Here, I don't feel good about taking them.
(Hands him a A$5 note)
Guy: No, don't worry about it, it's fine, being neighbours and all.
Me: Nah, I would prefer it if I paid you for this, I'm not comfortable with bumming them off you like that.
Guy: It's fine. You can just give some back to me when you get a pack.
Me: Ah...I really don't feel good about it, coz it's not like I'm just getting one or two off you.
Guy: Really, it's fine. You don't have to worry about it. You can just return them when we bump into each other next time.
Me: I would feel much better if I paid you for this. Seriously, I insist.
Guy: Well...you sure?
Me: Yes. Thanks for the smokes.
(Hands him the A$5 note)
Guy: Oh...thanks.

That was uncomfortable...it's like that ang pow pushing back and forth thing, I can see why he's reluctant to accept the money since we live near each other, but I would not feel good about getting that many off him without paying him. It's not like we know each other all that well, it's a nodding acquaintance, so it feels funny to bum that many off him. Anyway, I've had three already. No! Conserve!!! Unfortunately, he's partial to the brand I find most distasteful...Winfield! I think it's lights some more. He doesn't pack his cigarettes either. Oh well, beggars can't be choosers.

It's such a disgusting habit...it's a wonder it's legal. ;)

The thing I will always remember about being with my dad is buffets at hotels. An appropriate photo, even though it wasn't taken on one of our family vacations, the imagery is not lost. Happy birthday dad!